i’m tired of all these lies and i’m not okay

hello i started having something with my boy best friend we used to be so close in the past. So first he asked if i was over my exes etc we would talk and he was cute etc then he left me on seen for 4 days said he was busy dealing with a family member who was sick at the hospital but i saw him online interacting with another girl and i called him out and his response was super confusing but i will try to explain in my own version literally that he needs to put his mind on other things or have distractions and more?? he didn’t say this but i think that’s what he meant i had to use chatgpt because that whole message is confusing. He also said that i should’ve texted him?? i was literally the one waiting for an answer?? such an odd thing to say. I felt awful, he does stuff like this then we keep talking like nothing happened and i’m the one who suffers with it

Then he will be all sweet text me a lot and then disappear again what’s happening looks like “breadcrumbing” honestly. This time he left me on delivered again for like 22 hours and came back saying he fell asleep because he’s been tired and haven’t slept for 2 days. He said he went to bed at 9pm and our last conversation was at 11pm so he definitely had time to text back if he went to bed at that time. All this is messing with my head i feel like a clown and i’ve been abusing drugs