I don’t really know why I’m posting this. Maybe just to get it out of my system. It’s been building up.
I’m 27. Lost my job back in January, and I’ve been trying to stay afloat ever since. Applying to jobs daily, learning basic WordPress/web stuff at night, doing what I can. But nothing seems to land, and I’m just tired. Like, mentally tired in a way that’s hard to describe.
Rent barely got paid this month after I sold a few things I didn’t want to part with. A friend covered my groceries last week and pretended it was “a favor I was owed.” I smiled, but it kind of crushed me inside.
Now my laptop charger’s breaking down — I have to keep it twisted a certain way or the laptop shuts off. I was planning to replace it this week, but that money ended up going to a prescription I couldn’t skip. Just another thing on the list.
Someone mentioned I should set up PayPal for small freelance gigs while I’m learning — might try that if I can keep this laptop alive.
Anyway, thanks if you read this far. I just needed to get it out of my head for a minute. Feels like I’m slowly disappearing, and writing this makes me feel a little more real.