When i was around 10 my mom let me guard the door as she was having sex with her now ex bf. (We didn’t have a door back then i know it sounds crazy and we lived as a joint family) i remember my tears streaming down my english textbook because i felt something was so wrong even tho back then i didn’t know what they were doing. It pops up randomly every now and then because it was a traumatic incident for me.
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Yes. That is so inappropriate of your mom to do, I’m so sorry it’s affected you this way. You are 10000% correct that this was traumatic. I hope you can talk about this with someone (a therapist, if you’re not an adult then a trusted adult, perhaps a school counsellor) and work through things like this that happened in your childhood. You are loved, you are not to blame for what happened. 🫶
Yes you were sexually abused/assaulted and what happened to you was not normal and not your fault even if you stood there complicit as a child.