Sometimes when i see someone achieving a goal related to what they like, while im happy for them, i also feel envious towards them, i never reveal how i feel to not ruin the moment just because my desire to be the center of attention and get praise.
For example lets say X guy got a job as designer for a studio, while everyone is celebrating, me included, secretly i get jealous of their role as designer, since i also enjoy making characters design and this feeling only fuels me with envy and intentions to be better than them.
Its something i shouldnt feel, is its normal to feel jealousy about things like this? Maybe a reason why is because i have a night shift and have to maintain my house and others and i cannot achieve anything related to what i enjoy as hobby because i have other priorities or maybe its another reason.
I just cant hide my envy when it happens, i wanna achieve something and get praise but not by hurting everyone and acting childish.
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Not sure if it counts as normal, but I certainly feel jealous in these sorts of situations, particularly if someone else has done something quicker, easier, or more effectively than me.
I don’t tend to feel jealous if it’s something I really don’t care about, like they’ve just got a job in Aldi, or they’ve moved to Milton Keynes.
Yes it’s normal!! Because it’s easy to want someone’s success while they’re being celebrated, who doesn’t want to be up there, the center of attention? but USUALLY…. When you pull back the curtain……. The stuff people have to do to reach that end point a lot of sweat, blood and tears. Since we can never fully understand someone else’s journey, there’s no real reason to be jealous. Sometimes I think a little bit of envy just means we want better for ourselves, and wanting better for yourself isn’t a bad thing.