When I say horrible, I mean I’m just an entire wreck. Crying over the tiniest of things, overstimulated far more easily (I’m autistic), wayyy more irritable (genuinely everyone and everything makes me want to scream), my mood swings are so much worse and I also become like a lot more suicidal which is really annoying.
Then I get my period then yeah things make sense.
I’m usually not that bad once my period actually arrives other than crying more than normal, it’s just the week coming up to it that makes me feel absolutely horrific. It makes me want to rip out my uterus so badly when I realise all of that bullshit was just because of my period lmao
I’m not sure if it’s just regular PMS or if it’s something else. Not going to get too into it here, but I’ve experienced suicidality for years so it isn’t entirely new or anything like that. It’s just a LOT more intense and frequent
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I don’t know if it is necessarily normal, but I feel similarly before my period. And once I get my period it’s like everything is alright again.
I get incredibly irritable, and my fuse becomes non existent. I cry and break down over the dumbest shit, I can become violent towards myself, my anxiety is at an all time high. It sucks.
PMDD is something you can look into, your symptoms might be fitting.
Hey friend, what you’re describing sounds extremely similar to what I experience as well (also autistic). I used to describe it as “premenstrual existential dread”.
Have you come across premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD)? If not, I’d like to suggest having a look to see if it matches what you’re experiencing. It apparently occurs more frequently in autistic and adhd folks.
Definitely look into PMDD. I saw recently that 90-something percent of menstruating women with autism also have PMDD.
Try r/PMDD – even if it’s not the case, you can read a lot of experiences how to handle yourself.