I’ve read a few times that there are supposed to be three great loves in your life. The first one, when you are very young teaches you what you do and do not want in a man. The second is the worst, the person you really saw something with. And the third is supposed to be your life partner. I think that if this is true I’m going through my second. It was short, it was fast. But God I’d rather go through my first heartbreak 100 times than whatever this is. I miss him. No one seems to understand why. I’m spiraling. I have one friend that understands. Yes it was short-lived, but I’ve never felt the passion and just love I felt with him. Why him? Why not my three year long relationship w my ex? Why does this hurt so much more? How do I move on from this? I don’t want to eat, I don’t wanna get out of bed. I just got closure last night. I thought I would feel better, but I just feel so much worse. I don’t even wanna move.