Is this worth continuing between me 23F and my online friend 23M?

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Hi, I’ve got an online friend that I met back in 2020 on Tinder, the beginning was really tough as he wasn’t used to opening up to people and I’d lie if I’d say i didnt want something to happen between us, i had a crush on him from the get go, I think he did as well. He even asked me out at the begging but it always was with some sort of excuse – “after covid”, “i never crossed the border” etc. even when I asked him out twice during the time we got close he always said some sort of excuse. But I kept in contact because I really enjoyed talking to him and I felt safe,naturally we got really close last year, but still, nothing happened and I feel like in a limbo, I feel like a comfort space for him but not like someone that he’d try to be a better person for. He’s unemployed and lives with his mom and I think he has a Peter Pan syndrome, his typical response to not have a responsibility is by saying excuses.. The only two things he does is that he goes to uni during weekends and plays videogames. Nothing i tried to do helped the situation, it’s been really tough for me because I realized I can’t fix/change people… These days I feel like an emotional sponge for him, wherever something weird/bad happens to him he tells me, I try to help him as much as I can and we have long ass conversations about it but a few days ago I sent him a paragraph with what happened in my life recently and he responded to a few things and didnt even ask me some follow up questions, it hurt. I thought he’d maybe change and figure out life for himself but nothing changed. I just feel like I’m filling up his void whenever he feels lonely and I’m sick of it. I’m thinking about cutting him off for good but on the other hand I care a lot even though I know I’m the one that kept this alive mostly. Even when were chatting I am mostly the one that sends the last message. Ngl there were some really nice moments when he helped me but I think it’s not enough anymore to keep this going. I know he told me a few times how he is sad when I’m sad but he doesn’t feel bad at all when he gets all the support from me and I didn’t get much of it a few days back when I really needed someone to talk to. I don’t know what to do, even when I call him out on how he is sabotaging his own job search it doesn’t do anything. And a few months back he told me how he hopes we will get to meet one day if we won’t get nuked, if he’d really want to we would have already…

TL;DR got a friendship lasting for years now but i feel like i’m the one that leads it and Its with a guy i got feelings for, but he’s always been very passive and doesn’t have direction in life, keeps giving excuses, i thought things would have change but they’ve been the same

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  1. 2zoots Avatar

    Sounds like you’re making his problems your problems. I’d simply move on with your life, what’s the point of an online friendship if you’re miserable and stressed.