So, uhm. Maybe some people had seen this on Instagram but I got exposed for something I don’t even remember commenting and I apparently beefed with a bunch of people and even told my sister and best friend some shit that I do not remember. NOT AT ALL. I’m a really far left leaning dude and I’d call myself a feminist and despite being a personal trainer and advocate for having a healthy body I’m all in for body positivity especially for women when it comes to things like pregnancy which is why I specialize in coaching women- just as little introduction and why this freaks me out so much…
So apparently I posted a comment under a relatively big influencer that was really vile and absolutely sexist, I have no clue when and why, I don’t even know what the post was about. I can’t find where I commented that and what else I commented. I saw that I had a bunch of death threats in my dms and was talking with a bunch of people via dm where I as well said a bunch of vile stuff.
THIS IS SO NOT ME. I’d burn down cars and vandalize a Nazi’s house but I WOULDN’T TELL A PREGNANT WOMAN THAT SHE HAS A TERRIBLE BODY! I’m now rethinking so much. has this happened before? Was I drugged? What happened? Am I sick? Is something wrong with my brain?!
I’m fucking scared and am losing my shit. My best friend is absolutely disgusted with me, I have deleted Instagram before my sister could reply again, I talked a bunch of shit to strangers and I have said such vile things that are not remotely what I’d ever say to someone like that, especially because I’m so anti body shaming…
I’m so lost right now and am worrying so much especially because of my bond to my sister and best friend… What am I even supposed to do now… I thought I have a bright future but now I feel like I’m drowning and could never keep working in my field when I literally commented something like that, I don’t even know if I ever said something like that and if I did why don’t I know it anymore?!
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Obviously, instead of posting it on the Internet, go to the doctor or psychiatrist. If what you say is true you shouldn’t wait. Who knows what the other you is capable of especially since he seems to be a bit angry towards others. Good luck to you, I hope the outcome is positive.
er…do you think possibly someone else had access to your account?
Lemme be supremely helpful by saying: Yikes
The aliens have been probing you for months
This has happened to me in a bi polar manic episode. I still forget things I say sometimes, which can also be attributed to age.
Obligatory mention of carbon monoxide detectors. Also if you use any drugs or alcohol consider that. If you take prescription medications, check you’re on the right dose and review possible side effects. How much sleep do you get at night, and what time was the post made? My BFF cleaned the whole kitchen while asleep. My husband was asleep, hallucinated his kids were here, and cooked an entire pancake breakfast for them.