I don’t even know where to start. It’s been two months since my girlfriend and I broke up and instead of healing or moving on, I feel like I’m sinking deeper every day. I don’t have any close friends to talk to, no one to hang out with, and the one person who meant the world to me is just gone.
Lately my thoughts have been getting darker. I keep imagining getting into a serious accident and ending up in a coma just so I don’t have to deal with this anymore. Like maybe if I could just skip this whole part of my life, things would be easier when I wake up. Or maybe I wouldn’t wake up at all and I wouldn’t have to feel this pain anymore.
I think part of me is hoping she’d care if something happened. Maybe she’d come visit me in the hospital. Maybe she’d show up to my funeral. I know that sounds messed up, but I guess it’s this part of me that still wants to matter to her.
I feel invisible right now. I feel like nothing. I don’t know what to do or how to pull myself out of this place. I just needed to say this somewhere. Thanks for reading.
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It will get better, I guess. It is funny and sad to see men (?) on reddit missing their gfs and being never needed myself. You’ll heal and find someone else. You’ve got one girlfriend, you’ll get another. Do not think about what is lost, do not scratch that wound.