I’ve been trying stocks and I think I have a gambling problem or I’m just really desperate.

So alot of bad things have happened and I’m broke, I’m in a bad situation, and I hate myself, and alot of my problems could be solved with money which like I said I’m pretty broke so I was thinking what’s a quick easy way to make money? Stocks! Nope I was wrong I’ve lost money on most attempts I buy cheap ones in hopes that they just exploded, I see how much it was in the past month and think hey if it gets that high again boom profits or even if it goes up a 5 cents. My goal is like 10 percent profits and I’m buying like 40 cent stocks or less mostly . But every thing I have now just keeps going down, and I keep thinking hey it will go up eventually, like I keep kicking my self because on 3 separate occasions I almost bought a stock for Hella cheap but didn’t then like 2 days later it goes up a few dollars I’m talking from 40 cents to 3 dollars! I would have made a decent profit if I went with my gut. So that leads me to today, I have some stocks I’m sitting on just hoping it’s gets better but it doesn’t, and I have to try really hard not to buy more but the what if is so inciting!

Anyway I feel like shit about my current situation and I feel even worse with my whole stock escapade but like I just can’t help it, I know I shouldn’t but it’s soooo tempting and I get this thrill, and anxiety just thinking about it. I love and hate it. I just needed to get this off my chest I feel like crying sometimes just thinking about it’s, so go on tell me I’m stupid, and make fun of my post for its Grammer or some shiz.