Me 28m just venting to the void about something. Best friend 24f is love of my life. She has no idea. We live in different parts of the country, so we don’t really see each other. For this and various other reasons, we are not and cannot be an item, and that’s ok, I’m living with that. She has her own life, and she is doing really well. At the moment, though, it seems she’s having some relationship issues, so the part of me that’s in love with her wants to message her a lot and be there for her, but the more rational part that understands why all of that would be a bad idea is thankfully keeping me from doing a dumbass thing. I tend to get way too intense way too quickly with messages, something that has burned me severely in the past and cost me friendships, and I don’t want that to happen here.
I want her to be happy. And what she’s going through sucks. And im struggling with my feelings for her and also with the helplessness I feel for not being able to really be there for her more, and I actually hope more than anything that she can sort things out, because her happiness supersedes any feelings I have for her. Add to that some good old fashioned guilt for feeling this way in the first place, because it feels like I’m making her shit about me, and it seems selfish, and I feel like an asshole for that as well. So yeah. My heads a fun place to be right now.
Not looking for advice or judgement or anything. Just been squirming with this for a couple days and just needed to yell it out at complete strangers like a deranged hobo.
TL;DR Girl I love is going through some stuff, and I feel like a bad friend and just needed to vent.
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>Not looking for advice or judgement or anything.
Ah yes. The r/relationships equivalent of the guy who goes to a restaurant and just orders a water.