Libido/p0rn/prostitutes/sex-dolls confession

Greetings, Strangers,

I’ve been exposed to adult content as early as I can remember, must be before 10 years old via unregulated internet access. Masturbating before I could even produce semen. The habits of watching adult content has consisted throughout my life, I am now 37 years old. Have tried to abstain from masturbation or adult content many times but always caved in and came back to it.

After high school, I ended up working offshore, and was in the presence of adult workers when not on the ships, I never thought I would ever end up with a prostitute but that vision slowly eroded. First by visiting happy ending venues. After a few years of that, I went to Europe for work. And well turns out I have a huge weakness for eastern European woman… then it just spiraled from there. I’ve seen so many woman and done almost everything imaginable with them (with their consent).

After a few years of visiting escorts, it became a huge drain financially. So I’ve almost stopped doing that – Instead I thought it more economical to purchase a life size sex doll. My first one wasn’t great quality (quality matched price tag) – naturally I wore that one out, and ended up purchasing a more durable/expensive/lifelike one (Zelex doll) – which honestly is awesome. Incredible realism for a doll – and I don’t feel so guilty as I did when I visited prostitutes… one of the main perks, I can spend all night with the doll, fulfilling all kind of desires at my own pace. Latest ventures I have been taking the doll to air-bnb locations, dressing her in all kinds of outfits and doing the deeds at nice locations, even outdoors at times. I have been creating elaborate home movies and posting them the hub.

I’m not really sure why I am confessing this tbh. No one in my life is aware of this. I keep the dolls at a storage facility (not at my house). I guess I’ve always felt alone and as if I have a high libido/perverted mind. Or perhaps I just have poor disciple and self control when it comes to sex. I’m interested to know how other males and or females view this aspect of my life.

Peace out – L

Australia