I spent my teen years chronically, freaking depressed and now I’m finally on depressants at 21 but I’m gonna be 22 soon and I just feel like I’m letting my life pass me by so fast.
I see others my age and they’re happy lives their trips their friends and I’m just here at home. Going to school going to work I tried to make friends, but I’m just so socially awkward then I don’t know if it’ll ever work out for me, because I’ve always been this way. Just kind of quiet and off you know? I feel like I’ll just never be normal like anyone else and I feel like I can’t even go out on my own because I’ve tried I’ve done vacations on my own. I’ve done bars on my own parties. It’s just so fucking lonely. I feel lonely and I feel behind and I just feel really sad.
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let me start off by saying you are doing everything right so far. keep plugging away at life. finish school and continue to work. Once you are out of school explore some of your special interests, see if there are any social groups with them. if you like reading join a book club ect. do things that are important to you. When you do this you will be around like minded people and it will be a more natural setting to meet friends. Life comes at different people at different paces. Its not about how you start the race its how you finish it, you know?
I don’t know how much this’ll help but just know you’re not alone in that boat.
I’m 25 just coming off depressants that I’ve been on since like 16 and just starting to get my life together. I never thought I’d make it this far so I never made plans while my best friend just had a kid and is gonna be getting married. I’m here at the starting line. I know your pain.
I’m a very “keep people at arms length” and a little socially awkward kind of person so I get what you mean on it being hard to make friends. Just know the only way is to keep trying and eventually you’ll find someone that clicks.
The only way is to take it one step at a time. My advice for you would be to think about the next step you want to take and work towards that, even if as simple as making a new friend somewhere/online to work on social skills.
Just look at the next step and you’ll be amazed at how far you can go.
You’re doing the right things. All you can do for now is set yourself up for the future. Keep going strong!