Me (21M) and my girlfriend (20F) met last time for a gig with her band. It made me self-conscious because it was my first time seeing her interact with her friends and she looked so happy (which made me happy too), but I keep thinking about whether she’s also that happy with me

She’s very attentive to me that night, she even asked me if there’s anything wrong that I want to talk about after the gig, but I said none because I couldn’t yet process how I want to say it. I don’t want to spit out words that I haven’t completely grasped my thoughts on. It’s not like I only want her to be happy with me and not with others, I told her that when we talked about it. But I just couldn’t really get it off my mind. Maybe I’m just too stuck up about it because it’s the first time I saw her with her friends and I kept wondering if she’s also as happy with me as she was with her friends.

I know that this is just a me thing and it’s probably as stupid as you think it is. I keep thinking about the smallest details of that night like how she didn’t ask to take a picture with me when she did with her friends, how she accepted a cigarette from one of her friends even though she doesn’t smoke anymore, but when I look at the bigger picture, it’s just that one night. Maybe because it’s their first time meeting again.

Tl;DR I need advice about my way of thinking