I’ve had this memory in my mind for far too long and I don’t know who to talk to about it, so I’ll put it here.
When my brother and I were little kids, we used to shower together. We’d splash each other with water, laugh, scrub one another’s hair, etc.
But we also did gross stuff that’s haunted me for about 10+ years. We’d put shower water in our mouths and spit it in each other’s mouths. We even kissed, thinking it was just something funny and gross. We also french kissed, thinking the same. Eventually, we stopped doing it, but it’s never left my mind. It disgusts me so much to know that I did that. Sure, we didn’t know what we were doing. We did it because it was weird. But knowing now makes it a lot more disturbing.