my dad was abusive to me growing up. He’s still in my life, but distant. I daydream everyday for hours and hours about myself being a young child and being cared and protected and loved and being showered with hugs and kisses and snuggles from a dad. It makes me feel so safe and warm.
A few months back, I started imagining more stranger things. Like having a really nice and kind stepdad fall in love with me, but he never acts on it.
And then even more disturbing, I started imagining being sexually abused by a man who later feels guilty about his actions and hires a therapist for me who later adopts me as his daughter (its weird idk either)
i posted this on a different subreddit a few months back and everyone reccomended therapy. I can’t really do that right now, but I’ll look into it. But since I’m a girl i was wondering:
do men with bad moms/dads have similar, wierd thoughts too? Do you ever daydream about having a good dad? Do you imagine strange scenarios with a step parent? Do you get jealous when you see your friends interact with their dads? What’s your outlet (how did you get over it?) I don’t want to be alone.
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You never truly get over it, because that experience has shaped your personality. My father was a terrible person and thankfully I never have to see him anymore. He was abused himself and used to say “I dont abuse you as much as I was, so its okay”. All you can do is try and be very hyper aware of behaviors you are confident stem from it, and try extremely hard to not let your actions be influenced by it. I never will talk to that man ever again nor will I see him on his death bed. I try my hardest to not let my anxiety/anger leak out onto others.