Missing my shift at work

I missed my shift last night at my restaurant job I’ve been at for 2.5 years. I guess I’m just asking for advice on how to handle my managers upcoming speech to me. We haven’t been in the best of terms- we’ve fought twice before. Of course I’d like to say the fights are his fault but I know and have been told that if I maybe just didn’t react so strongly back he would be less critical. For one of them, I was covering a 10 minute break and after doing a lap I headed to the kitchen and in those few minutes this table left. This led to him calling me after I clocked off asking me what happened and I said that I’d done a round, they had no food and looked done so I let them be. People never dine and dash there but he ended up cussing at me saying I should been checking my fucking tables and I got a write up over it. After that I was really cold to him and how he picks on me for every godamn thing. He’s immature for 42, makes weird sexual jokes to all the girls at work, don’t know why, I think he likes letting everyone know he has a history of sexual prowess, and he loooves compliments. We have some regulars that worship him as he manages our speakeasy and people find that cool.
He’s a dick, and I just don’t feel bad about missing my shift. After all this I’m asking how I should go about returning to work. I know I need to find a new job because I do sound pretty unhappy. I’m sure he’ll say something insulting to me and I don’t wanna take it but I also don’t want to fight.
Life is a lot bigger than my restaurant job. I know this. I just am dreading talking to him. I know he’ll love laying into me.
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