TL;DR: My girlfriend thinks I am hiding cheating when I am not.
Me and my girlfriend have been together for a few months, she has expressed how in many passed relationships she has been cheated on, I sympathized with her and told her it has been the same for me.
We are both virgins, this is important to point out as I will explain a major thing.
She constantly thinks I will cheat or I will talk to another girl, keep in mind I’ve shown this girl many things, dms, what I am doing most of the time, just to satisfy her overthinking but it never feels enough, if I don’t reply to her for some time she automatically thinks I am texting a different girl. (I have female friends, but haven’t conversed in months because I find it uncomfortable talking to other women while in a relationship.)
Another thing is when I was younger, I had some…lets say BAD experiences, so I have always chose to stay a virgin, the thought of intimacy scares me, she is the same way.
I also am constantly playing single player games, I am a soulsborne fanatic, I love the games and I replay them often, so I talk to no one online unless its the boys which is rare, I give her all of my time usually.
Today struck a nerve because she talked about something I am not familiar with that worried me because I am very repulsed from any form of intimacy or human contact.
She told me her worst fear is dating a man with “wandering eyes” keep in mind, I’ve never heard of this term, I thought she meant she doesn’t like someone who can’t keep eye contact because I can’t, it’s always made me uncomfortable, so I stare at walls and stuff when I am in a conversation, it keeps me more engaged and doesn’t worry me as much.
Not what she was talking about and she told me to look it up, basically adultery, I am also Christian btw, so this stuff disgusted me, she was afraid I’d stare at other people in a weird way, like I was more interested in them than I was her.
I genuinely could never, that made my stomach turn even thinking about it.
I asked her if we could end the conversation and she started replying with satire replies like my feelings didn’t matter, it ended with her just saying bye, no I love you or anything, I called her out on it but she just gave me the silent treatment, so I told her I need space to myself, that this conversation really upset me and made me uncomfortable, I told her it also made me feel like I can’t be open with her because I feel like she will judge me like she did just now.
Thanks for reading, I just need some advice or some closure, this really just upsets me overall.
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Why are you in this relationship? Seek therapy.