We had a very toxic relationship. It started back in 2022. Lived together for just over a year. But he had so many toxic traits and was so verbally abusive I walked away. We recently started talking again back in February, no idea what made me think this was a good idea but I’m only human so my mistake. Last year, my cousin who was raised with me (more like an older brother) passed away from a targeted overdose. I found out my ex was associating himself with one of the girls involved with it while we were talking. I asked him respectfully to please stop talking to her and that I didn’t think it was right. However, the fact he knew she was involved and still talking to her anyways bothered me and I decided to cut ties. He then went back and told her the things I said about her while him and I were talking again. Which made this girl go off the hinges posting all over social media about me and my deceased cousin. I had 77 missed calls from my ex all on a private number. I decided to answer one of them. He was going on and on about how ugly I am, how fat I am, how my p*ssy stinks, that I’m a terrible mother and a loser. All of which I’m sure aren’t true. But everyone’s entitled to their own opinion. I’m a deep lover. I love everyone that’s crossed paths with me that meant something to me and will always take words to deeply and end up hurting from it. My question is, is he saying and doing all of this because he’s hurt I am refusing to give him another chance because of his bad decisions and that fact that we just don’t go together? Or is everything he’s saying actually of substance and he’s saying this to emotionally hurt me? I don’t think I’m fat. I’m 140 5ft 7. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder but if I’m so ugly I wouldn’t be able to understand why he dated me and chased me for years. I’ve never ever had anyone tell me my lady bits have an odor in my life. And my kids are always at the top of my charts day in and day out. Idk why I’m questioning myself but those words hurt. Is he doing this intentionally?? To hurt me? I feel like this is a dumb question but I need clarity.
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He’s 100% trying to take his anger out on you and make you feel like a POS because he wants you to probably feel how he’s feeling. It has nothing to do with that you’re actually ugly or whatever else. TLDR; he wants to make you suffer. That’s really it OP.
“. I had 77 missed calls from my ex all on a private number” If this persists, please take screen shots of this and consider escalating this to the police to get some kind of restraining order.
Block him everywhere and get a restraining order if he wont stop.
“I’m a deep lover.”
No you’re not lol. You just have zero self respect. Which is why you keep engaging with him.