I know we’re dealing with stuff way beyond our age, but please don’t leave any hate comments. I just need to know how to get over this.
I (15f) grew up hanging out with two boys, Will and Alex, who I went to school and summer camp with. We’ve all struggled with our own stuff, but our little group was always pretty stable. Then, last year Will and I got drunk and carried away and he ended up getting me pregnant. It was obviously really scary for both of us, but Alex was really supportive. Our baby was born almost two weeks ago, and Alex was one of the first people to meet him.
Alex killed himself last week. I feel so guilty. We should’ve been better friends to him. We were so preoccupied with our own irresponsibility that we didn’t notice our best friend falling apart. He was always so happy, though.The only time I ever saw him cry was meeting my son. He was such a great person and I miss him so fucking much.
I seriously don’t know how I’m going to get over this. I was already struggling with postpartum and now the grief is setting in and I can feel myself drowning.
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I’m so sorry. This is heartbreaking. Please don’t blame yourself you loved him, and that mattered. You’re not alone.
What Alex did had nothing to do with anything you did or did not do. Remember him for the life he lived and not how it ended.
I’m so sorry for your loss. You and Alex were both struggling in different ways, and it’s not your fault. Grief and postpartum are incredibly hard please don’t hesitate to reach out for support. You’re not alone, and you’re stronger than you think. Take care of yourself.
This isn’t your fault. You’re dealing with so much, and it’s okay to feel over whelmed. Please talk to someone you trustyou don’t have to go through this alone. You’re stronger than you know.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please be gentle with yourself, you’re carrying so much. you didn’t fail him. Grief is heavy, but you’re not alone.
I know it must be heartbreaking for you right now, especially with the grief kicking in this late. I hope you heal & carry him as you grow older, in that way you get to honor his memory. All that love now belongs to you & I hope you make him proud.