I’m 14 f btw so but a few days ago saturday we were in my room us and we were just talking we’re close too so we were just talking random and then we kinda got to venting somehow I kinda said some stuff but anyway she said she cut herself again, she never really says why but I know people do it to feel better I kinda know what that feels like…
but then next I started kinda venting and while I was talking she started crying she said everybody loves me and it makes her mad when I say I’m ugly or stuff and started saying and making me feel bad but I just wanted to talk… she didn’t let me I never do that to her but anyway…
she started saying a bunch of stuff how no one loves her and how she’s ugly and she’s the problem and everyone would be better off without her, i hugged her and I said none of that is true and everyone loves her and needs her and that if she doesn’t believe anything else just believe that I love her and I need her, and that she’s amazing, that she’s so pretty and beautiful (because she is and it’s so sad she can’t see that… but the weird thing is… she says the same for me…:/. ) that I love her being my friend, that I love her jokes, that I love her smile, that I love everything about her,
and I was hugging her and holding her hand and said it hurts me when she cuts herself , and I told her to make a promise to atleast try to not do it anymore for me, she said she can’t promise because I’ll be mad if she does it again, I said I promise I wouldn’t , and that’s it’s okay if she messes up or falls , but what matters is that she tried and that’s all that matters.
But yea we just talked and talked and but what’s scary … is that she said she wants to stab herself with a knife or pills….and the way she said it was scary… but I know what that feels like too… But we said a bunch of stuff back and forth I tried to just make her feel okay again, I made her okay again I wiped her tears and we watched a cartoon and ate ice cream and snacks she was smiling again. But I know a person can smile even when everything’s not okay…because I know what that feels like…
She said to don’t tell that she cut herself again or why… I promised not to… I don’t want to break our trust… I don’t want to betray her.. even though she told on me before about something I told her not to tell… but it’s not about me… but she said it was because she had to or something bad else would happen more… even though she lied to me I wouldn’t do that to her… but I feel scared if she actually does it… I love her so much… I’ve been trying to spend alottt of time with her to keep her distracted from bad thoughts… I feel like thats the only thing I can do…
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You’re a great friend for being there. But since she’s talking about hurting herself badly, you should tell a trusted adult to help her stay safe. It’s not betraying her it’s caring. You don’t have to handle this alone.
Ur way too young to be carrying this on ur own. Ur cousin needs help. Talk to ur mom about it and have her keep u anonymous. I know u want to keep her trust, but this is a serious matter and if we don’t tell someone, it could get worse and turn into an even more dangerous situation.
Think of it like this, would u rather have her be mad at u but she’s also alive and getting the help she needs or would u rather keep her trust and she gets even worse and eventually takes her life. Trust me, if anything happened to her, u will carry guilt and regret for a very long time and possibly the rest of ur life. Do the right thing