my dad is a disgusting pos

I’ve always had an off feeling about my dad since I was a kid. I hated getting attention from him on my appearance to the point I literally tomboyed myself so hard to avoid his cat whistles and comments on my looks from a young age. I found my dad’s history of watching gore videos when I was a teenager. He also made comments about my friends who were all minors and how they had nice figures. I lived with the guilt for so long of being his confidant as he would tell me to keep it a secret and not tell anyone about his comments. After starting therapy, I was able to start talking more about it and I cut my dad off for a year and left the country to get away from it and heal. Years later, we built up a good relationship and I thought he had genuinely changed and realized that to have a relationship with me, he’d have to truly change. Well guys he didn’t. He was being inappropriate with my ex making comments towards her and rubbed her thigh. She told me all of this yesterday. I went off on him and disowned him as my father. I looked at his YouTube history and it is full of watched videos of animals getting hit by trains. A bunch of videos of shootings and execution videos from war. There were a few of women getting hit by trains and one of the world behind the r*pe and murders of women in World War II. I genuinely feel absolutely nothing. I knew he was sick but this was a whole new level. He also had a google search for the dark web so I’m sure he’s searching for more hard core stuff if he hasn’t found it already. My dad is a fucking predator. I hate him. He is everything I stand against. I haven’t seen him since I yelled at him. I don’t want to see him or talk to him. I hate him. I hate him. I feel like I’m going crazy and I really doubt that anything will happen. I’m sure my mom will still stay with him and my sister will preach about forgiveness and God. I feel so alone in this. I keep reminding myself my role is one of the child. I don’t have to fix anyone. Sigh. Thanks for reading.