my family and i moved from a 2 bedroom apartment, with my brother sleeping in the living room so i had my own space but obviously during inflation and shit we were eventually forced to move to a one bedroom apartment. i can’t help but feel so upset and disappointed that i have to share a room with them right now. they fucking snore, they scream, they criticise what i do, and i wouldn’t mind, i really wouldn’t mind it. i even made my own makeshift curtain on my bunk bed so i could keep my own space and privacy, but they think its way too much for our apartment and that i should get rid of it when its the only thing that makes me feel sane in this fucking apartment. all i asked for is this curtain, all i asked for is this space, it’s the only way i feel like i have a little part of my old life back again. sure call me spoiled but we wouldn’t have to move if my father didn’t quit his job three years ago before an elaborate trip to our home country for a whole month after not coming home for nearly an entire decade, only to turn down every other job that came his way cause he felt like he deserved better. god i just wish i get into this college i applied to just so i can get away and get my own space again. if he didn’t just quit maybe we still would’ve been able to afford our old apartment instead of him having to be a driver, cause at least he was making decent money then unlike now for ducks sake. if he wasn’t so selfish and hadn’t quit maybe we wouldn’t be in this fighting mess, i know we have to make sacrifices and life isn’t fair but why does his decisions have to sacrifice my family and i’s quality of living and it doesn’t even feel like he’s trying to do fucking better. i just want our honestly i just hope i get accepted into that uni i want out. not only that but literally just a few weeks ago we got into an argument and he grabbed me by the neck and pushed me right into the closet when i told him to fucking do it cause he was abusing my younger brother over basketball, in an attempt to stand up to him. i’m a teenager, sure but i still have a lot about life to learn, but for FUCKS sake he’s a grown man without a job, abusive, and i have to share a space with him??? im so tired of it genuinely. i do not want to be with him anymore im so fucking tired. univ please let me in i can’t handle this anymore ;;