My precious dog, a female 13 years old westie, is suddenly falling apart. Her legs are unstable and she has tumor in her lungs, probably cancer. She isn’t going to live for long. This literally broke my heart. I’m 22M and I have her since I was 9 years old. She saved my life.
I had her by my side during my childhood, my teenage years and my early adult life. We grow up together. I don’t have any sibling and I grew up in a really toxic and emotionally abusive and neglectful family. When I was a kid or a teen and I used to come back home feeling upset about something that happened at school, only my dog was there for me to comfort me. Even currently as an adult, when I have personal problems, the first one to be there for me with a cuddle is her. When I broke up with my ex gf and I was devastated, I used to go for walks with her and calm down. When I used to come home after a bad shift at work, she was there to show me that someone can love me no matter what.
Hearing from vets that she isn’t going to live longer than two months is the most heartbreaking experience in my life. I don’t think I would be where I am today if I didn’t receive this kind of love from my beloved dog. I don’t know how I’m going to be mentally well if I see her passing away and live my life knowing I won’t be able to cuddle her again. To go for a walk with her. To spoil her with treats and toys. To see her doing silly stuff and laugh. To feel like there is someone that loves me unconditionally, no matter how many mistakes I made. No matter how problematic I am. I can’t imagine a life after I burry her and see her for the last time. The thought of it makes my heart break and my future seem dark and scary. Seeing her being old and weak is the most painful thing I’ve ever witnessed. The past one week after she got diagnosed, I can’t stop crying. I can’t sleep. I can’t focus on my college. I have so many important tasks for college since it’s my last month and I can’t do any of it. My life is falling apart. Right now that I’m writing this, it’s my 4th time crying for today.
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I’m so sorry. Our pets are our family and it hurts just as bad when we lose them. I have a 14 yo golden and I dread this day. Hopefully you can find some peace knowing you gave her so much love and spoiled her with treats and toys. Know that you gave her such a good life and she’ll always be in your heart. Know that you were also her everything just as much as she is yours. I know there’s nothing I can really say that will help the pain. Enjoy every minute you have left with her. Sending lots of love your way ❤️
She has known a lifetime of ONLY love from you. Her home is you. Even when she’s gone, she’ll always be around. May you find her again, in the eyes of a sweet animal when you need her most.
May empathy and warmth grace your path, friend
I’m so so sorry. Losing a beloved pet is a very real and feel pain. We spend so much time and so many beautiful and vulnerable moments with out besties. I don’t know how I’m going to cope either my friend. So special to be loved by a dog ❤️