I am trying to live life the best I can. I am daily very sad and hurt about my past, but I realised that since I myself don’t fear death or what comes after, the best thing I can do is do the things I wish to do.
If I am honest I struggle with following certain aspects of maximazing my life more than others (ahem education…). But I already have done of the big things I didn’t believe I would do.
I traveled alone far away from home. I was scared to do this since I look very childish and am kind of short, I was scared that people would try to take advantage of that. But I did it anyways and did people try to take advantage of me since I seem like a easy target? Yes. But they were not succesfull. I prepared myself by packing my bag safely and being always aware of my surroundings.
I was near the eiffel towers, but didn’t know I was near near it. So I came out of the metro, I was walking up the stairs and a professional pickpocketer tried to steal from me, but I caught her before she could steal something (I didn’t pack anything important in my front pocket). she ended up unsuccesfull and I pushed her by my elbow, which caused her almost fell on her face!
It made me feel better about looking so childish. It gave me the perspective that due to my childhood I am good at problem solving and that my looks are not as limiting as I thought. Also this was not the only time someone preyed on the fact that I look so childish.