Sorry if I am all over the place. I know the title is already strange, but I hope that I can make it make sense.
I met my girlfriend when we were high school students. I was a senior, she was a sophomore. I was at a point in life where I was about to graduate high school as a completely depressed mess with absolutely no plans or aspirations. Students were applying for college at the time, and my girlfriend mentioned the college she wished to attend so so I just applied to it since I had nothing to lose. Sure enough I was accepted, and my adult life started there.
College was extremely rough. STEM is not for the weak, and trust me I was as weak as it gets, but I knew I had to pull through, not for me but for her. She deserved the best boyfriend possible and I was ready to do everything I could to be that person. There were also times when I genuinely considered ending it all, and although therapy didn’t help much, thought of abandoning her was enough motivation to make me stay.
The point of this background info? That if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be the person I am today.
Everything I do is with her in mind. She is my motivation every morning. I go to sleep thinking about her, I dream her maybe 5/7 times a week, and I look forward to the time we spend together every day. I love her like I never imagined possible, and I love loving her. She is extremely beautiful, inside and out, and I cannot get enough of her. I love her more every passing day, and she only gets more beautiful with time. If anyone was ever perfect, it would be her.
Is it healthy that I’m so attached to her? I suppose time will tell, but in the meantime I’ll continue to enjoy her existence like there’s no tomorrow.
It truly is the greatest honor to be her boyfriend.
Not sure what the purpose of posting this is, but it feels good to let it out.