My girlfriend’s mental health is bringing me down

Alt account obviously.

My girlfriend is wonderful she’s so hard working and makes me so happy. She’s amazing in so many ways and a lot of the time we’re happy. She’s a lot of what I wanted. However her mental health is draining.

I’ll never say this to her because what kind of person could but it’s so much. It feels almost every day she seemingly has a panic attack, feels bad about something, self harms, has suicidal thoughts or something like that. A lot of the time I completely understand why. Life has not been easy on her and I’ll never be mad at her for it but it takes a lot out of me. This past week I’ve just wanted you to go to the gym for an hour after work but her mental health issues make it to where I can’t. She goes to therapy she wants to be better I want her to be better and I know she can. I just get so tired and want to better myself but I can’t when she’s hurting.

I know I might sound like an asshole posting this but I’d never tell her any of that or act on it. I just needed to get it out.