English is not my first language, so sorry for mistakes in advance – I’m learning still.
I need to tell someone, or else I explode right now. I don’t have many friends and I don’t want family too know just yet.
He (35M) doesn’t know that I (32F) know about their affair. I wanna play it cool, just draw divorce papers and leave with kids, when he doesn’t expect anything. I forgave him the first time, believed it was one time thing, that he learned from his mistakes. He said he loves me, adored me, we were together for 14 years. Our two daughters are almost 13 and 8. They will be crushed, I can’t even think about destroying their world but I can’t take it anymore.
I saw their conversation today and when I look at him – he’s so repulsive for me right now. I’m so angry at this point, at her, at him, at myself. They destroyed two families so easly I can’t even understand it. I don’t know how I will survive this one and a half week.
I will wait one more week, but can’t look at him normal. From love to hate is so short way. I felt that something was not right from quite the time. He was just off. This week I reserved my free time from work because of that feeling and I was so guilty for feeling this way. It’s crushing, I prefer living in oblivion, not aware of this betrayal.
I’m gonna tell her husband about the affair the same time I leave our apartment. I have screenshot from my husbands phone, I saw their conversation and sent to mine while he was showering this evening. Her husband deserves to know just like me, because in some twisted way, we are in this situation together. He will be equally crushed, probably, but nobody deserves living in lies with homewrecker.
I have my own place from my late father, so this doesn’t concerne me. But kids will have to change school, I will have two times far drive to work. I’m scared, but I can’t live like this, without love, without trust. I can’t sleep right now, while he’s sound asleep with his phone under pillow.
He doesn’t know that I know. And he doesn’t even expect what will hit him soon.