My life is falling apart bit by bit, and when i asked my mum to name 3 thing that had gone well for me this year she just said i had lost weight, i started to wear makeup again, and i had bought new clothes. And i just dont see how any of that can out weigh, destroyed lungs, a dead pet 3friends killing themselves, another friend getting blood cloths, a stalker, my chronic pain being nontreatable, me being diagnosed blind, breaking my hip and later breaking my thumb. I cant work or study because my muscles are slowly dying because my lungs cant get enough oxygen to them, my tooth broke and i needed that fixed along with my wisdom teeth pulled, but the roots were curly so i wasn’t fully numbed and i sweat every time i think of it. my depression is getting worse and worse so i have difficulty maintaing my friendships and i have cried myself to sleep everyday since october when everything started. There is a ton i forgot there has just been a lot of things constantly and every time i tries to smile it off i get hit with more. I just want a break, and had my mum said anything that wasn’t about my looks that was going well maybe that would help, but all she cares about is my looks not anything else.
I dont know what advice i might be looking for, but if anyone has any advice to glue the pieces of my life i have left together i would really appreciate it.
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That’s tough. Life can be really cruel sometimes. It must be so hard for you. Just don’t give up, okay? Things will get better with time and you have at least one stranger in your corner. Take it day by day and be kind to yourself. When you start feeling overwhelmed, take a deep breath and try to distract yourself. You’ll be alright. Stay safe.
My suggestion would be to take #3 all the way and find emotional support from a professional today. If you already have a counselor, maybe you would benefit from a more supportive setting while you adjust and cope with all the curveballs life has thrown at you. Is there an inpatient mental health facility that you could get to?
I applaud you for reaching out and looking for help. You clearly have the strength to get through this. Mom’s are not born therapists, and what your mom said sounds like something my own mom would’ve said.
Hey good morning to you first off I’m sorry that you’re feeling this way I know it sucks and I was reading your post I can understand the devastation of how you feel my question to you is everything that you’re sharing on here did you share this with your mom I’m only saying this because I think she does not understand just how terrible your feeling from within try to go back and tell her exactly what you’re saying here to see if she can give you any other words of comfort and not just a generic feel good statement if that doesn’t work come back on here share your story hope that helps good luck to you and don’t worry it will take some work but life will get better just take it one day at a time 👍
I don’t have any advice,I wish I did . I am giving you hugs that I hope you will sense , love is the only thing that is real.
Good luck
I don’t think your mom cares only about your looks. Those are just the things that went well as you asked. You’ve had a tough year. You know it and so does she.
You need to try and look on the bright side I guess. I know it’s hard. I get down too. But your still here. Take it day by day. I’ve been terribly ill too and it’s not good.
Trust me though try reaching out to your friends again. Talking can really help.
I’ve also read kdrama is good for your mental health. I watch a lot of them and it really does help me. As long as you don’t watch a depressing one. Most aren’t though.
I’m so sorry my friend. This has to be a hard position to be in. I don’t know much about you but I do feel your pain. I have a lot of friends with chronic pain, and they are inspiring to me for keeping their head up and pushing.
You inspire me. You may have only done some small things, but who cares? You did them!
I’m sorry about your pet and your friends, that is never easy and I do understand that feeling. I don’t necessarily have advice but I’m always able to lend a listening ear, and be a safe place.
As far as studying, have you thought about using speech to text technology to write? So you can have the ability to start studying? Sure it takes longer, but that way you can attempt to start a college education. That can give you something to look forward to rather than being stuck in your thoughts.
Colleges and Universities (not sure where you live exactly), do have accommodation programs that can help you even if you take online courses.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I hope you find some peace and find something to look forward to again.
It’s so saddening to read stories like this. I’m in the non treatable chronic pain group too. Mine is spinal and agonising if I move too quickly or too much.
And then to have all that piled on you as well I can’t imagine how you feel. I worked in a fish and chips shop until my back got to breaking point. And I’m only a 30,M. I can’t believe you’ve had all that happen in such a short span of time. Losses always make things worse too.
I’m stuck at home nearly 24-7, still living with parents , just the one friend and that’s me in a nutshell. No social life or owt. About the only thing you can do really is just keep plodding on. Hopefully you are alright and find something interesting to keep your mind occupied. Mines long gone and I’ve the memory of a goldfish. There’s got to be some groups etc out there if you need someone to talk to though I can’t remember any with my stupid brain. No harm in reaching out for help.
Hope you get some good head your way.
Me too man. I hope your doing okay.
The fact that you’re still breathing through all of this is a testament to your strength. It’s okay if ‘strength’ right now just means surviving hour by hour. You’re doing enough
You may feel broken, but the ability to still care, to still want healing, is a kind of hope that hasn’t given up on you yet.