When I (24 F) was a kid, I became best friends with a girl (now 27 F) who lived in my neighborhood. We’d go over to each other’s houses after school, spend holidays together, and we were pretty much inseparable until I had to move to a different town a couple of hours away. I was devastated, but we kept in touch and I visited her every summer when I would stay with my extended family who still lived there.
For the first few years, our friendship continued on as it normally would, but as we got older things started to change. One day we were joking around and came up with a “game” where we’d take turns pretending to be boys and flirt with each other as a “joke”. One time when we were playing the game I remember feeling excited and she ended up getting on top of me and we kissed. Then afterward we laughed it off and continued hanging out like we normally did.
Over that summer it progressed from kissing, to making out, to touching each other, to dry humping, and eventually getting naked and scissoring. But it was always part of that “game” that we played. This happened every summer for YEARS until I stopped spending the summers away from home (due to college/working).
We still keep in touch but are more distant now since it’s been a few years since we’ve seen each other and we’ve still NEVER talked about any of this. I’ve also never told anyone about it (until now haha).
I just think it’s so crazy that we would literally have sex and then pretend it never happened. Another weird thing is that I never caught feelings for her and I don’t think she did for me either. And despite that being my first sexual experience with another person and it being with a woman, I didn’t actually realize that I’m bisexual until pretty recently because I’ve only ever had official relationships with men and thought that I was just confused until further reflection as an adult. She also identifies as bisexual now.
Anyway, I felt kind of embarrassed about this for years so getting it off of my chest feels good lol.
P.S.: pls don’t send me creepy DMs!
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what a fantastic and trusted friendship. soon use toys and go to next level
did you played boy role or she ?
I mean it’s pretty normal for kids to “explore” their bodies and especially if it’s someone close to you. As long as it was consensual I wouldn’t make any deal of it.
Seems you two were simply exploring your sexualities. If you both enjoyed it, then it makes for a good memory. Treasure it.
I think it happens with boys to only not making out and stuff.
It’s interesting how the mind can completely compartmentalize experiences like this. Both created this separate reality where it was all just a ‘game’ that existed outside your normal friendship. Do you think if you brought it up now, it would strengthen your connection or make things awkward? Im pretty sure she thinks about it just as much as you do.
More people have stories like this than you would think. Not necessarily bi or gay (although, that too), but someone they explored with when they were young who’s still in their lives, and they NEVER talk about it.
Kool.
Nice you had a good experience with a close friend! It’s odd you never spoke about it after.