I’m a 16 M , and I live with my mom. Over the years, I’ve seen her in relationships with multiple men. I first discovered one of her relationships in 2019 when I was just 10. Back then, I didn’t fully understand, but within a few months, I realized what was going on.
Since then, I have seen things that has f*cked me up . I pretended to be unaware because I didn’t know what to do or how to respond. In 2023, we moved to a new place, and she began a relationship with someone from our extended family. Around the same time, I started being homeschooled and became completely isolated. I haven’t had any friends in the last 2 years . I’m an only child, and my dad works in another state and he is not so diffrent than my mom
Last month, I took my 10th grade exams. I’ll probably fail at least two subjects. My mental health has taken a serious hit—I’ve had constant headaches, no energy, no motivation to study or do anything.
Recently, I told my mom that I knew about everything. She didn’t deny it but said she was lonely and that my dad didn’t care. She presented herself as the victim. Since then, our relationship has been even worse. She refuses to take responsibility and blames everything I’m going through on my phone and laptop use. In the last two months, she’s left the house multiple times—today included—and she keeps telling me I shouldn’t use any electronics for days.
Lately, I’ve been struggling with overwhelming anger. I’m constantly tense and find it hard to control my thoughts. There’s more to my past too—when I was younger , my neighbour SA me it 2 to 3 times
Now I have no idea what to do with my life , I am also having suicidal thoughts for a while because knowing I can end this suffering relivies me
( I have to use chatgpt to make this post clear to understand and no grammar mistake , so pardon me for that )
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Just to clarify, your mom and dad are split right?