Need advice about university and future plans

Hi everyone,
I’d like to share my situation and ask for advice. Right now I’m really stuck and don’t know what to do. I’ve been struggling to make a decision for the past two months, and now I literally have just a couple of days left to finally choose.

I’d like to stay anonymous, so I won’t share my name, age, or country.

This year I graduated from high school, and now it’s time to choose a university. Where I live, students usually pick their career path in grade 10: they choose the subjects they’ll need for admission and spend the next two years preparing for exams. But my case was more complicated. Since childhood, my parents have directed me towards medicine. Both of them are doctors, so in a way, the choice was never really mine. Medicine did interest me, but during preparation I sometimes broke down and realized I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to become a doctor. I wanted to consider other majors, but my parents insisted on medicine, saying it’s a secure career and they’d be able to support me. I agreed, convincing myself I could handle it.

The plan from the start was for me to study in Germany after graduation. But since they have 12 years of school there and we only have 11, I’d need to complete an extra year at a Studienkolleg. That’s why in 10th grade I started learning German. Normally, students only focus on math and German for this, but my parents thought I should also study other subjects seriously, to build a stronger foundation. So I ended up with 8 subjects: math, Russian, English, German, physics, chemistry, biology, and my native language. I spent about 6 hours a day with tutors, and the rest of the time doing homework.

At the end of 10th grade, I went to Germany for a month-long language course. That’s when I knew for sure that I wanted to leave. I felt free there, I could dress how I wanted, make friends easily, and no one judged me. It became clear: I want to study and live abroad.

But in 11th grade everything changed. My parents decided I should also prepare to enter medical school here in my country, while continuing German at the same time — basically, to try for both here and there.

At first, my dad suggested that I enroll here, freeze my first year, and at the same time enter a Studienkolleg in Germany for one year. If I didn’t manage to get into a university there after that, I’d return and continue studying here. Later, we found out that wasn’t actually possible.

I started stressing a lot: my chemistry was almost zero, and I suddenly had to catch up on everything in just a year. That’s when I told my parents that I wasn’t sure if medicine was for me. We began having lots of arguments about it. I think I even went through a kind of depressive period then.

In 11th grade I barely went to school — only tutors. Chemistry was still a mess. I did well on my first exam, though: 250 out of 300. Our exams are split into two parts, and that was the first one. Here, even 200 is considered a strong score, so 250 is really good. I got 94 out of 100 in math. But chemistry, physics, and biology are in the second part of the exams (2–3 months later), and that result turned out bad.

As for German, I didn’t manage to pass B2 the first time — right now I only have B1. In the end, I didn’t get into medical school here. But because my score wasn’t that bad, I qualified for other majors. About a week ago, I found out I was admitted to the biology faculty. But I’m not sure I want to go there.

And this is where my main struggle begins. I don’t know what to do next. My parents want me to spend another year preparing and try again for medicine. But the passing score is so high now that I know I won’t be able to reach it. I also don’t have the strength or patience anymore — last year I was motivated, but now I feel drained.

I also don’t want to study biology. That’s not the life I imagined for myself.

So, here are the options I see:
1. Spend another year preparing and try again for medicine or IT here. But I’m scared I won’t make it.
2. Focus on German and math for a year and try to get into a university in Germany. But the risk is I might fail the exams.
3. Start studying biology here and try to transfer to Germany after a year. But I’m not sure I even want to continue in that field.
4. Consider the US. I found an organization that helps students apply for a full scholarship. This would take 2 years: one year preparing for IELTS and SAT, joining activities, volunteering, etc., and then another year waiting for results. My parents aren’t fully against this option, but they’re not fully on board either.

The problem is, I honestly don’t know which path to choose. I feel like every option has big risks, and I don’t want to waste time chasing something that might not work out. But at the same time, I don’t want to settle for something that doesn’t feel right for me either.

I’d be really grateful for any advice — how to figure out what’s truly mine, which direction makes more sense, and maybe even if there are other opportunities to study abroad that I haven’t thought of yet