I hate how some girls change the way they treat me once they realize I am not a threat to them.
At first, they are really nice. They come up to me, call me pretty, ask me for makeup tips, or say sweet things. I get excited because it feels good to connect with people. Some just stare at me or ask if I want to be friends. We hang out and talk, and a few even tell me they were a little intimidated by me at first. Then something shifts.
That shift happens when they see that other people do not treat me the same way. They notice that guys do not like me, that I get ignored, left out, or even bullied. When they see that I am treated badly by others, especially by guys, they start acting like they are better than me. Some even treat me like I am disgusting or try to bring me down.
It is really confusing. One time after school, a girl came up to me and said I was so pretty and asked to be friends. I said yes. But over time, she started using me, making little rude comments, and putting me down. If my hair looked bad, she would say it looked cute. But when I actually looked good, she would say nothing at all.
I am not saying all this to act like I am perfect or better than anyone. I do not even think I am pretty. I barely get any attention from guys. I am not rich or super smart. I do not think I have anything that would make someone jealous. I am not a popular girl. I actually get bullied or made fun of if people do notice me. So I do not understand what the problem is. Why can’t we just be friends and treat each other with kindness?
It makes me really upset. There was this one girl at school who stared at me all the time. Then later in the year, her friend started bullying me. I finally stood up for myself and we got into an argument. I just thought, like, why are you even mad at me? You were staring at me for weeks before this.
I am not trying to act like I do nothing wrong. I asked my friends why this happens to me and some of them said it might be because I do not have a lot of confidence. In social situations, I get nervous and scared to talk to people. Even though I am actually bubbly and outgoing around people I trust, most people just see me as quiet and shy. So maybe I seem closed off.
But still, I just do not get why being treated poorly by others makes people feel like they can treat me badly too. The more quieter I get and try to fade in the background makes it even worser. Like damn I’m trying to hide here 🙈