OCD Made Me (21F) Push Him(M20) Away… But If He Really Loved Me, Would He Still Leave?

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I 21F had this guy 20M, dated for 1.5 years, somehow i always acted rude to him, like without wanting to do it, and eventually i ghosted him for 4 months, he thought i ghosted him intentionally and gave up on me, like 2 weeks after texting him again he found a new girl, n said want nothing from me, not even wanna talk to me, i thought he would get me, would understand me mental condition, but he just left last night, i ve been begging him to stay, but he got a girl now and tbh i want him to be w her because she is normal unlike me a girl w ocd, honeestly he was the first person i told about my ocd n told him everything how i feel due to it, yet he left, he left me crying, i didnt ghosted him intentionally (people w OCD knows how it works, brain just makes u stop doing stuff u deeply care about). i wish i could get him back but he (because i ghosted him) doesnt even care about it all. OCD DEEPLY AFFECTS RELATIONSHIPS SO BAD, all type of relationships

TL;DR:
I pushed away someone I loved because of OCD. I didn’t mean to ghost him, but he moved on and left me when I needed him most. Mental health struggles can destroy relationships — even when your heart is in the right place.

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  1. quietbushome Avatar

    hey, i also struggle with ocd. i understand how hard it is. but ocd is an exhausting illness, and if you’re rude to him and ghosting him he’s allowed to leave even if it’s your ocd making you do it. even if he really loved you.