Hopefully this post belongs here. I have a lot of unanswered questions. Seeking answers…
From my grade school years until I became an adolescent teen, this was “normal” to me.
The most vivid memory was a particular weekend staying at my grandparents.
This happened often. I brought my own change of clothes and pajamas for the many stays.
But this weekend, it was a last minute decision to stay overnight. It was as if it was planned.
My grandmother was petite and had a nighty with matching panties for me to wear as PJ’s.
Seems made up as I write this. But my grandmother had some issues of her own. Won’t go into…
Personally, I was excited in my head. But had to put up a front of “boys don’t wear that”!
This boy wanted to wear it! There are no photos of this, thank goodness. But there are others…
Let me explain. Born the youngest boy, my family was hoping for a girl. I was mentioned openly.
I wore my hair long and dressed in bright colors. Some could’ve been worn by either a boy or girl.
The passage of time made me forget this. Until I saw old photographs of me from my childhood.
As an adult, I accept myself as a male. But know there’s a girl inside of me. Hard to describe…
Apologizes for any typos or ignorance regarding gender issues. I’m nervous about this! LOL
Comments
A lot of us men have a feminine side that we tend to hide away. You’re not alone.
Damn right it’s a journey, complex as hell. Next step, find some like-minded folks online who get it (e.g., r/genderfluid, equivalent subreddits), share your story and experiences, listen to theirs… it might just help you navigate this crazy gender landscape.
Im a girl and I have a side of me that feels like a boy so I totally get it. I prefer boy clothes over girl clothes. Not trans or anything, just a girl who likes boy stuff.
OP, you may possibly have a submissive side. Don’t let me tell you what’s true for you but if it resonates, then you’ll know. And there’s nothing wrong with it.
Signed, someone who used to do spicy work on the Internet as a dominant woman.