I’m 18 now, but earlier today, I found myself thinking about something from when I was 12. I was kind of a weird kid and at that time, I asked a friend if I could carry hug her at school, but she said no. Fast forward to today, and I was kind of in the mood, using my mind to arouse myself and cycling through different thoughts. One of those thoughts was about that memory, but as I started to get aroused, I realized it felt weird since I’m 18 now and that memory is from when I was younger. I didn’t want to keep thinking about it, so I quickly changed my focus and started imagining both myself and the other person older in my mind before finishing.
At first, I was imagining the person I had asked to hug, but then my mind shifted, and I started imagining someone else who I didn’t even know when I was 12. Even though I was thinking about someone I know now, I still envisioned myself as 12 in that memory. I didn’t think much about the other person’s age in the moment—it wasn’t about their age, it was more about the action and what was happening in the thought. When I realized how it felt, I quickly shifted my thoughts to something else.
I’ve been really been panicking, and honestly had some insane post nut clarity since. Is this something concerning?
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IMO I’m glad you recognized the first though was kinda weird and changed it
u good sir are fighting temptations from the devil himself. Just recognize the error, know thats not you or what you want to be apart of- and break that pattern before it becomes one.🤜🏻🤛🏿