In a funk. Surrounded by things that need my attention but I don’t have the drive to tackle any of them. Tapped out. Exhausted. Needing some validation and acceptance.
As I was driving home from the hospital this morning (I work night shift 7P-7:30A) I was sitting at an intersection and said “maybe an asteroid will hit my car”. 😂. Since then I have taken a nap, worked out, and then went on a walk. Dissociation time.
It’s that core depression. Like deep down below all the fake smiling. Like I’m traveling abroad for work and having a great time but I’m so motherfucking lonely and not feeling seen, heard, felt or loved at all. It’s all high fives and handshakes oh boy.
To anyone reading this as someone who also suffers (M34), the following things helped a lot!!
Stop watching porn and masturbating (2-3 times a week is fine)
KETO diet for 1-2 months. A lot of people’s mood is a direct result of the diet they eat. Modern processed carbohydrates are not needed by the human body. It makes a huge difference to mental clarity, mood and desire if you ditch the carbs. True keto is great but no more than 10% carbs a day if you can’t commit to true keto.
Join the gym and train. The best thing for the body is the serotonin/endorphins the body releases during a workout. Nothing beats it.
Talk to people! There are people who care.
Do your old hobbies or things you want to try. Try and do things that get you out the house.
Sleep! Get at least 7-8 hours a night.
Trust me. I was in the pits. None of the above is beyond any of you.
Like everything is fine but I’m constantly on the edge of a cliff and one strong gust of wind could turn my life upside down. I have no control of the wind…..
Not so good at the present moment. Feel like a big ol’ void of nothing. Everyday is the same thing. I’m lonely. I want to cry but I’m at work until 7 so holding back until then.
That aside, I hope you are well. Hopefully nothing is weighing you down.
Like theres no purpose. I have major anxiety, and sometimes I just have to remember the good memories, knowing fully well that I will never be able to relive them. I feel like time goes too fast, like I just cant enjoy the things I enjoy. I constantly feel like im on a timer. Holidays are always the most depressing. They will end. Its the truth.
I have problems with OCD and anxiety. I honestly feel very bad. I can’t even normally sleep. It’s like the whole world is falling into the abyss. Sorry for this, but I don’t know what to do. I try to get out of this hellhole every day. I try.
I was really looking forward to the huge comet that was supposed to get near the earth and it isnt so… I still have laundry and a family to tend to…I’m still keeping on.
Ready for this cycle to end. Between wanting to switch careers and finding out my husband has betrayed me, the past 11 months have been a viscous cycle of paralyzing (and sickening) anxiety and depression.
The only thing I look forward to is the other life, even though I know deep down that there wouldn’t be another one. There are many things I wish would and wouldn’t be in the next life. Things I’m scared of to changed in this current one.
I hate myself for not trying and feeling powerless. I don’t live to enjoy, I do it to survive. That’s it. Nothing more and nothing less.
I just wish everyone here a really good life and to take care. That maybe it will be okay and that you should not lose any hope like I have.
Surprisingly a lot better than I normally do: I got back from a very sunny vacation with the partner two weeks ago and that has helped a ton. I still lack a lot of focus and am not deriving the same fun I used in a lot of things but I am not spending days in bed unable to do anything because of unwavering dread and melancholy.
I’m cycling between tired and numb and overwhelmed and anxious. I feel like a burden to my friends and family even though I know that’s not true. But masking to be around them lately has been truly exhausting.
This is it, I want to sleep, it’s 12 midnight, but I can’t go to bed. I continue trying to find a way out of my situation and not end up in an even bigger hole. Although I want to fall asleep and not wake up, so that this would finally end
I feel like I’m going nowhere. There are things that need my attention, but I can’t motivate myself to do them. I feel drained. I’m spinning my wheels day after day and nothing happens. Yet I always feel exhausted. Work is not a hard job, thankfully. But I feel like I’m self sabotaging again. Like I’m trying to get fired so something happens. I’ll beat myself up for feeling this way right after I post it.
The American public thinks I’m a drain on their taxes and is whole sale firing my co workers and then yelling at us for not being able to do what they want and maybe I’ll be next so you know, just spontaneously crying every so often.
Awful. But thinking of those of you who are suffering as well. I know I’m going to feel better at some point, and temporary is that maybe, I cherish those times. I wish peace to all of you
Depressed and Love sick. In addition to my normal depression, I fell in love with someone I didn’t expect to. They already have someone. Part of me wants to move on now we’ve crossed that line. I’m afraid to lose the only true friend I have, part of me wants him to leave her for me, and the worst part of me doesn’t care about her and wants to have a relationship despite her.
Like I am unnecessary and will never be satisfied. I will never find love again, even though I see it walking down the street everyday. I will never find fulfillment, even though I see people get excited about life everyday. I am a shell, moping around until my time is up.
I’m not diagnosed with clinical depression so don’t want to take anything away from people who do but honestly I just feel numb right now. “I’ll never be good enough for anything, so why bother?” is constantly on my mind. I’m not even good enough to end things for myself, I’m too big a coward.
Man been waiting for this one!… I’ve been crying on and off hours and haven’t got a wink of sleep. I need to show up to uni later (its 5 am rn) and I’m just hoping when exhaustion finally knocks me out I don’t oversleep.
Right now, on autopilot. I will take that over the hopeless and helpless feeling any day. The world seems so off right now, I’m just trying to ignore it and focus on me.
I’m doing fairly okay. My medicine has made my depressive symptoms almost nonexistent thankfully. Unfortunately still the muscle aches, fatigue, irritability. We gon make it one day tho 🙏
Cycling between being sad and angry. Tired and restless. Bored and empty. All while being the most productive at work, doing all the house work and pet caregiving despite having a partner. At least I can cry at my desk as I wfh. Hyper-independence and isolation ftw.
Honestly, I hope I don’t wake up from sleeping!! and if I didn’t have children, I would have took my life years ago. They save me, but I’m still suffering, however, if you knew me, you wouldn’t suspect a single thing!. Stay strong guys.
I need to get groceries and be home by 330. It’s 230. I’ve been in bed all morning despite knowing there’s things I could/should be doing. It’s such a nice day out too. And yesterday I said I wouldn’t waste the day.
Also I don’t want to go to work ever and have been in a bad mood since February.
A general sense of anxiety. I’m applying to jobs without technically having the credential for a school counselor yet but I know I can do the job. Just give me the shot to prove it. If I don’t get the call or my app is rejected, all the feelings of “not being good enough” flood into my head and it’s difficult to get out.
Makes me feel like nothing matters anymore. Why go to work? Why do I exist? I go down a deep mental hole and I end up crying. So drinking or weed/edibles help me not think too deeply about my life and how it can be be better and actually matter if I did things differently. Found out that off’ing myself would make people in my life upset and cause them problems so I’m just stuck.
Last month was the worst month of my life. I neglected myself so much. No food, no shower, no life. Just lying on the bed without any expression. In addition to depression, I was an extremely private person, so I suffered alone.
This post has the porpuse to help each other. We need someone, everyone has bad moments, everyone has bad memories, everyone has bad thinks. Please be kind in any social media and in real life💙.
(Sorry if something is not write good, i don’t speak english, i try to do my best without traslante).
I mostly just try to focus on things that do bring me joy and push out the thoughts of the things that bum me out.
If I can keep my mind occupied on something then I am usually good to go. It’s those moments with nothing going on where my mind starts to dwell on the things that cause the depression in the first place.
I’m kinda scared because my grandparents came over today and are staying for the next two weeks or so, I don’t know why I’m scared, they love me. Currently hiding in my room
And I hate it because I want to also improve in my life and do better but I so little to no motivation to do anything that I just do the bare minimum, even if it means just putting a fake smile or an empty conversation
hey, two weeks ago i wanted to drive my car off the bridge cause i was stuck in an alcoholic bender. now, sober, i feel fucking great. alcohol needs to be forever banned, just like missiles and bombs
I’m in a dull listless state of mind where I get overwhelmed with emotion and cry for 3 seconds before blanking out again and don’t know how to feel or how to go on.
What’s helping is trying to change my attitude, more happiness, less shit that puts me down. If I feel it pulling me down, I get away from that right away
Like I’m drowning. Tears immediately sting my eyes as soon as I’m not distracting myself from thinking about where I’m at in life. Feeling insanely overwhelmed with all the things I need to do to improve myself and my life all alone again. Lost and hopeless.
I don’t know how to be a solid human that can contribute to good friendships anymore.
I don’t want to be alone but I fear I’m never going to find someone who truly loves me and will stay.
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In a funk. Surrounded by things that need my attention but I don’t have the drive to tackle any of them. Tapped out. Exhausted. Needing some validation and acceptance.
depressed
Tapped out. Disassociation time
Disrespected as well as depressed. Also, probably going to be sick this weekend… again. Taking care of children is yucky.
I feeeeel fantaaaastic
hey hey heeeyyyyyy
Little oxygen… Heavy body…
Worse than depressed
Irritated
More depress. More stress
It’s tough just now. The world feels like it’s losing its mind, and hope for a better future is dwindling by the day. But, we keep on keeping on.
Right now I feel pretty okay, which is a relief from my earlier anxious thoughts that were making me sick.
My mind and heart are in battle. I don’t know what to do. I feel stuck and broken.
I feel like i need to do something about it.
Mania
Empty.
As I was driving home from the hospital this morning (I work night shift 7P-7:30A) I was sitting at an intersection and said “maybe an asteroid will hit my car”. 😂. Since then I have taken a nap, worked out, and then went on a walk. Dissociation time.
Anyone else just feel nothing?
Lost. Stuck.
Like shit and wanting to say fuck all.
Extremely exhausted.
Blunted. Fragile. Sometimes I feel like the wrong word will shatter me like glass.
But I had a really good date last night and we’re meeting again this weekend. So I’m also optimistic for the first time in a while.
How are you?
Depressed.
Meh
Not bad. Meds help.
Thinking of inventive ways to go
It’s that core depression. Like deep down below all the fake smiling. Like I’m traveling abroad for work and having a great time but I’m so motherfucking lonely and not feeling seen, heard, felt or loved at all. It’s all high fives and handshakes oh boy.
Tired. I had to start muting every political forum that pulled up and I’ve been feeling better.
With my hands.
I am overwhelmed with the responsibilities of life.
on edge, all the time
Gassy.
Depressed
Extremely low
Tired.
Angry, frustrated, tired, and a bit combative.
Depressed
Meh.🫤
I’m slowly tapering off my SNRIs: some days are good, some not so good. Today is a not so good day.
Not allowed to die but not allowed to live..I cry so much my skin falls off I literally lost everything in 2 years nobody understands
Tired. And tired of being tired.
i feel awful when i’m out work
Bo Burnham described this monday pretty well for me.. Plus it cheered me up a bit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJbR7K0E2Z4
I don’t necessarily want to die, but I wish I had a self destruct button.
I want it to go away. If it’s death that does it, I’m fine with that.
To anyone reading this as someone who also suffers (M34), the following things helped a lot!!
Stop watching porn and masturbating (2-3 times a week is fine)
KETO diet for 1-2 months. A lot of people’s mood is a direct result of the diet they eat. Modern processed carbohydrates are not needed by the human body. It makes a huge difference to mental clarity, mood and desire if you ditch the carbs. True keto is great but no more than 10% carbs a day if you can’t commit to true keto.
Join the gym and train. The best thing for the body is the serotonin/endorphins the body releases during a workout. Nothing beats it.
Talk to people! There are people who care.
Do your old hobbies or things you want to try. Try and do things that get you out the house.
Sleep! Get at least 7-8 hours a night.
Trust me. I was in the pits. None of the above is beyond any of you.
Empty and emotionally blunt.
Like everything is fine but I’m constantly on the edge of a cliff and one strong gust of wind could turn my life upside down. I have no control of the wind…..
Feel like everything is closing in on me. Cant think clearly. Constant inner stress because of bullshit i make up in my head.
Like i wonder why i’m bothering to stick around because it sure seems like the world doesn’t want me here
Not so good at the present moment. Feel like a big ol’ void of nothing. Everyday is the same thing. I’m lonely. I want to cry but I’m at work until 7 so holding back until then.
That aside, I hope you are well. Hopefully nothing is weighing you down.
Like theres no purpose. I have major anxiety, and sometimes I just have to remember the good memories, knowing fully well that I will never be able to relive them. I feel like time goes too fast, like I just cant enjoy the things I enjoy. I constantly feel like im on a timer. Holidays are always the most depressing. They will end. Its the truth.
Broken kinda, I keep getting bad news after bad. I’m just trying to stay hopeful and not feel bad for myself.
I’m just always tired. I sleep too much but I’m still tired. I want to do things but I have zero energy.
Depressed.
I was diagnosed with Asperger’s 25 years ago.
I was diagnosed with depression 21 years ago.
It’s been a struggle. Got a whole bunch of diagnosises in the intervening years.
exhausted, treading the week at work. i have to try and eat but can’t be bothered
Feeling like everything is absolutely shit
Depressed but maybe not defeated, time and distance give perspective
ass
Alone. My Kids and their mom is home, but still feel alone.
high and happy riding the train
I have problems with OCD and anxiety. I honestly feel very bad. I can’t even normally sleep. It’s like the whole world is falling into the abyss. Sorry for this, but I don’t know what to do. I try to get out of this hellhole every day. I try.
I was really looking forward to the huge comet that was supposed to get near the earth and it isnt so… I still have laundry and a family to tend to…I’m still keeping on.
I wanna die but cant its haram.
Depressed
Ready for this cycle to end. Between wanting to switch careers and finding out my husband has betrayed me, the past 11 months have been a viscous cycle of paralyzing (and sickening) anxiety and depression.
Hopeless, can’t connect with anyone, ask for help didn’t do anything.
Has anyone tried the treatment with Auvelity?
A bit blah, I’m ok but just feel like life is passing by but I don’t care because what’s the point – tomorrow is a new day
Stuck and longing.
The only thing I look forward to is the other life, even though I know deep down that there wouldn’t be another one. There are many things I wish would and wouldn’t be in the next life. Things I’m scared of to changed in this current one.
I hate myself for not trying and feeling powerless. I don’t live to enjoy, I do it to survive. That’s it. Nothing more and nothing less.
I just wish everyone here a really good life and to take care. That maybe it will be okay and that you should not lose any hope like I have.
All my thoughts go out to all of you.
Some days good. Some days neutral. some days bad. But it’s all due to the same stress, and it’s been difficult getting it resolved sadly.
Surprisingly a lot better than I normally do: I got back from a very sunny vacation with the partner two weeks ago and that has helped a ton. I still lack a lot of focus and am not deriving the same fun I used in a lot of things but I am not spending days in bed unable to do anything because of unwavering dread and melancholy.
Alone in a home with a family that should make me feel seen, heard, and loved💔
I’m cycling between tired and numb and overwhelmed and anxious. I feel like a burden to my friends and family even though I know that’s not true. But masking to be around them lately has been truly exhausting.
Been over a year on Zoloft. Made a huge difference.
Bonita with a hint spicy
This is it, I want to sleep, it’s 12 midnight, but I can’t go to bed. I continue trying to find a way out of my situation and not end up in an even bigger hole. Although I want to fall asleep and not wake up, so that this would finally end
I feel like I’m going nowhere. There are things that need my attention, but I can’t motivate myself to do them. I feel drained. I’m spinning my wheels day after day and nothing happens. Yet I always feel exhausted. Work is not a hard job, thankfully. But I feel like I’m self sabotaging again. Like I’m trying to get fired so something happens. I’ll beat myself up for feeling this way right after I post it.
The American public thinks I’m a drain on their taxes and is whole sale firing my co workers and then yelling at us for not being able to do what they want and maybe I’ll be next so you know, just spontaneously crying every so often.
Ok at the moment, today was a pretty good day where I managed to get stuff done.
Like I want to kill myself
I can’t live a second with my own thoughts. I fucking hate it
Ok at the moment, today was a pretty good day where I managed to get stuff done.
Awful. But thinking of those of you who are suffering as well. I know I’m going to feel better at some point, and temporary is that maybe, I cherish those times. I wish peace to all of you
Unmotivated and lazy
Depressed and Love sick. In addition to my normal depression, I fell in love with someone I didn’t expect to. They already have someone. Part of me wants to move on now we’ve crossed that line. I’m afraid to lose the only true friend I have, part of me wants him to leave her for me, and the worst part of me doesn’t care about her and wants to have a relationship despite her.
Like I am unnecessary and will never be satisfied. I will never find love again, even though I see it walking down the street everyday. I will never find fulfillment, even though I see people get excited about life everyday. I am a shell, moping around until my time is up.
Terrible. I want to die right now. My appartment is a mess. I want to take a shower, but I can’t. I‘m to tired to Cook so I keep ordering pizza
I’m not diagnosed with clinical depression so don’t want to take anything away from people who do but honestly I just feel numb right now. “I’ll never be good enough for anything, so why bother?” is constantly on my mind. I’m not even good enough to end things for myself, I’m too big a coward.
Dead inside and just a shell – getting through one day at a time
Exhausted, emotionally and physically.
depressed! shocker
Life would be the greatest thing ever if only I wasn’t alive to experience it.
Man been waiting for this one!… I’ve been crying on and off hours and haven’t got a wink of sleep. I need to show up to uni later (its 5 am rn) and I’m just hoping when exhaustion finally knocks me out I don’t oversleep.
“ “I am dead inside.” -Michael Scott” – u/Beezleboobz
Not good at all. And I feel so alone 😢
terrible. I’m on meds and I lost my job last week. I don’t know how I’ll go on from here, but whatevs. Nobody cares.
Right now, on autopilot. I will take that over the hopeless and helpless feeling any day. The world seems so off right now, I’m just trying to ignore it and focus on me.
Very low today . . Did everything I know to help myself . . Just had to accept today was going to be my grey day this week . . ¬hing lasts forever
I feel nothing
Lonely
i beg for death but it will not come.
i don’t understand what i did that was so terrible the universe keeps punishing me by keeping me alive.
I’m doing fairly okay. My medicine has made my depressive symptoms almost nonexistent thankfully. Unfortunately still the muscle aches, fatigue, irritability. We gon make it one day tho 🙏
I’m to high to care lol
I am getting married in 5 months and I don’t feel excited at all, I have nobody except my fiancé to talk about it with.
Worse than ever, which is funny since i’m on holiday. Guess staying alone is far worse than going to work, even if work is painful in other ways.
Cycling between being sad and angry. Tired and restless. Bored and empty. All while being the most productive at work, doing all the house work and pet caregiving despite having a partner. At least I can cry at my desk as I wfh. Hyper-independence and isolation ftw.
Everything is so difficult!
I’m fine!
Abandoned and depressed but with a tiny bit of hope
Uhhhh idk like I feel nothing just existing yk
Honestly, I hope I don’t wake up from sleeping!! and if I didn’t have children, I would have took my life years ago. They save me, but I’m still suffering, however, if you knew me, you wouldn’t suspect a single thing!. Stay strong guys.
I need to get groceries and be home by 330. It’s 230. I’ve been in bed all morning despite knowing there’s things I could/should be doing. It’s such a nice day out too. And yesterday I said I wouldn’t waste the day.
Also I don’t want to go to work ever and have been in a bad mood since February.
A general sense of anxiety. I’m applying to jobs without technically having the credential for a school counselor yet but I know I can do the job. Just give me the shot to prove it. If I don’t get the call or my app is rejected, all the feelings of “not being good enough” flood into my head and it’s difficult to get out.
Makes me feel like nothing matters anymore. Why go to work? Why do I exist? I go down a deep mental hole and I end up crying. So drinking or weed/edibles help me not think too deeply about my life and how it can be be better and actually matter if I did things differently. Found out that off’ing myself would make people in my life upset and cause them problems so I’m just stuck.
exhausted and sleep deprived.
I know it’ll pass but it is mentally so exhausting
Numb and frozen in place so Im going to take the dog for a walk in the sun.
Adrift.
Mostly numb.
Rather odd seeing this I just called to commit myself and my insurance doesn’t cover it
My self esteem is very low and I’m unable to set or enforce boundaries
Okay at the moment. Working on fixing myself, being who I want to be. Meditation has been a big help.
Mine’s bipolar so I get the enhanced version of depression. At the moment all is calm so I shall presume the medication is doing its thing
Numb
Lonely
my depression is chronic but I’ve been in an okay spot this last few days. feeling kinda okay
I’m on meds, but even so I have mild mood swings. Right now I’m just ok.
Just started a new med yesterday that’s making me tired as hell. I’m hoping I get used to it, because sometimes has to change.
Last month was the worst month of my life. I neglected myself so much. No food, no shower, no life. Just lying on the bed without any expression. In addition to depression, I was an extremely private person, so I suffered alone.
Every time I turn around and think it’s getting better something what comes around and knocks new into a new funk of depression!
Pretty good actually, I’m sitting outside smoking a joint surrounded by bird chirping after I just got my TMS treatment
This post has the porpuse to help each other. We need someone, everyone has bad moments, everyone has bad memories, everyone has bad thinks. Please be kind in any social media and in real life💙.
(Sorry if something is not write good, i don’t speak english, i try to do my best without traslante).
Depressed
Ever since a massive storm hit I’ve been mentally fucked up. It knocked out power for many hours and stuff has been compounding from there.
Genuinely stuck. I can’t get my thoughts in order.
Ok
I mostly just try to focus on things that do bring me joy and push out the thoughts of the things that bum me out.
If I can keep my mind occupied on something then I am usually good to go. It’s those moments with nothing going on where my mind starts to dwell on the things that cause the depression in the first place.
Made an appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday.
Not good. I’m not having a Baja blast.
Like I can’t get anything started or finished
I’m kinda scared because my grandparents came over today and are staying for the next two weeks or so, I don’t know why I’m scared, they love me. Currently hiding in my room
My mood greatly depends on sunlight ☀️☀️☔️🌦️☀️
It’s starting to get worse again
Meh…I’m ok I guess but I do wonder, although not like I use to, what’s the point of everything? The world is sh*t.
I just want to be me again.
Not great tbh. But better than I was two months ago.
i feel nothing
I’m tired, boss…
Cold, transparent, lonely.
Medicated.
Thankfully.
Stuck/Numb
Like I have no future. Retirement….gone. I am living in dystopian hell
Lost
Bored and sleepy
And I hate it because I want to also improve in my life and do better but I so little to no motivation to do anything that I just do the bare minimum, even if it means just putting a fake smile or an empty conversation
Sad thanks
Empty anything i do won’t fill the void
Spiraling
hey, two weeks ago i wanted to drive my car off the bridge cause i was stuck in an alcoholic bender. now, sober, i feel fucking great. alcohol needs to be forever banned, just like missiles and bombs
I’m in a dull listless state of mind where I get overwhelmed with emotion and cry for 3 seconds before blanking out again and don’t know how to feel or how to go on.
As if I’m mentally already dead. Like my mind has already committed suicide but my body is somehow still alive. So to sum it up, I’ve been better…
To be really honest, very lonely. How about you?
Sad.
Tired and slightly irritable, with a mild headache. Typical day for me.
Like crap. Everything’s been falling apart this year and I just want to run away.
What’s helping is trying to change my attitude, more happiness, less shit that puts me down. If I feel it pulling me down, I get away from that right away
I feel no specific emotion. I can’t remember experiencing true happiness in a long while. Years perhaps!
And I just don’t have energy to do anything. I just lay in bed and rot for the most part.
Like I’m drowning. Tears immediately sting my eyes as soon as I’m not distracting myself from thinking about where I’m at in life. Feeling insanely overwhelmed with all the things I need to do to improve myself and my life all alone again. Lost and hopeless.
I don’t know how to be a solid human that can contribute to good friendships anymore.
I don’t want to be alone but I fear I’m never going to find someone who truly loves me and will stay.