My ex, but she did nothing wrong and I do t hold it against her. We were long distance and it was just too hard for her. But I was so in love with her I wanted to marry her. She stole a part of my heart and it’s still missing.
My dad, being told you are nothing but what you are between your legs, and that he only wanted that and regrets not leaving you as a baby gets to you after a while.
I did. Throughout all my life even when I was little I’ve always been very critical of myself. When I was younger I used to berate myself constantly for every mistake I made, though I have lightened up on that a little bit. However even little mistakes still get blown way out of proportion emotionally especially when combined with my awful social anxiety. Even though I’m trying to be less negative towards myself and don’t hate myself anymore I feel it’s going to be a long time before I actually like myself. Right now I’d say I kinda just tolerate myself I guess lol.
My dad, my mom, my sister, my brother, nearly every teacher in grade school, half the teachers in middle school, several bullies from grade school to high school, several guys in college, my ex-boyfriend, nearly every man I’ve dated since, my “best friend”, and many other people I thought were my friend. Oh, and myself.
My narcissistic mother who cheated on my dad, lied to me about it, married her affair partner, let that affair partner abuse me in every way possible, and willfully raised me in a cult even though she claims she knew it was BS before I was born…
A girl I hooked up with the first time we hung out about two weeks ago. When I was driving her home she said she liked another guy. It hurt a lot. Still had sex though!
Trash talking nearly every girl or woman whom I was interested in, coming up with reasons why none of them is good enough for me to date or even sleep with. Calling my car flipping business pointless and wasteful. Whipping my ass for the most trivial offenses as a kid. Accusing me of making my mom’s illness worse due to my mediocre grades, and even accusing me of “killing her” slowly because I was a crappy student.
My Family.
Me learning and seeing how destructive the Human Species has been and will continue to be to the only world we have.
Me realizing very early on that no one Knows what to do.
Me falling in Love and yet still not able to let go of my hate for myself and everyone, then losing that person.
And my mom. Pretty sure she has BPD and even though we no longer talk to one another, I’m still recovering from that. But that’s no excuse. I’m responsible for me and I’m doing the best I can and trying to minimize the amount of pain I cause others.
Ex-step mom and the parent who allowed my ex step mom to continue in our family for so long.
Body shamed and berated for almost everything. Judged mercilessly for every little thing I did. Stole big $$$$$$ from our family. Lied about assaults and played the victim in insane lies. An actual sociopath and narcissist. I feel bad for her actual daughter. Good riddance.
Got a good story out of it though – when I moved away for college, she lied to my dad that I had gone to federal prison??? instead??? And that I was dating 4 other prison inmates?? I was just chilling on campus ofc. My parents were helping pay for my college expenses at the time too and had regular contact with me? So it was such a weird lie. That was the huge moment that everyone in the family was like “Ok we all know this bitch is WILD.” Wish they had realised sooner but just damn. Living with an actual insane narcissistic manipulative person for years will affect you for decades.
I’ll have to think of the other insane nonsense she did. She was super racist and bigoted against a lot of people, but would only say crazy stuff around me and her daughter so people would just think I was lying. Her act/mask around other members of the family was the spookiest thing.
Who didn’t? My dad vanished, my mom barely parented me past the age of 9, my neighbor molested me, my first boyfriend raped me, my ex-husband repeatedly coerced sex by depriving me of sleep and then yelled at me for having a depression spiral when I miscarried…
The fact that I’m alive and mostly content is down to serious hard work and therapy on my part. My current family is basically me, my husband, and every person who needs us to support them emotionally plus our kids. I make my own joy, because other people keep trying to make me sob or rage.
My sister accused me of MO les tin g her when I was a 12 year old girl. Family’s been torn apart since. Her best friend of 16 years at the time was with us when she said it happened. The whole family believes me and knows she’s lying. We haven’t talked in years. I can’t comprehend how far deep in jealousy and pain you have to physically be in to accuse someone of that. She deserves prison time. I don’t know how to forgive something like that. She barely deserves the title of a human being. Had it not played out like this, I would’ve been sent to juvenile hall.
My dad. I didn’t make it through a single day without him telling me that I wasn’t wanted, I wasn’t special, I was a leech. I’m so screwed up now that I can’t make friends and have never been in a relationship. I’m wildly self sufficient now, though. So there’s that.
Pretty much everyone I’ve ever known they either died and left me behind, won’t really my friends and abandon me when I needed the most, and even god there seems to never really give a f* how f*** up people treat me and just leave me alone like he doesn’t care either
My best friend when he ghosted me for my bachelor party without any explanation whatsoever. He never apologized or explained his no call no show. I texted him calling him out on it and he didn’t even respond. I can’t fathom why he did it.
The mods at rsex. Some dude put a post saying he doesn’t know how ask his gf for oral and I commented asking to “man up” got kicked out for being sexist. Asking a man to man up triggered some girl. When my point wasn’t even about gender at all
Recently though, the pain from life has been more than enough. Car was totaled back in November under no fault of my own, my new kitten that I only had for 3 months and was only 9 months old died soon after Christmas and we don’t know why, and lost my job in March and having start from square one when it comes to jobs.
I only have my wife to thank for keeping me sane. Now I just accepted a new job at a different credit union and now I am going to be in branch. Not making as much as I did before, but might be able to prove and work my way back up to where I was and maybe more
Most of the things I’ve loved. Some more than others. Then myself because I started believing somewhere along the way that I was undeserving of love. Still working on believing I am.
Me. Nobody has ever done anything worse to me than I do to myself, namely, stepping on a nail, accidentally burning myself, and catching my hand in a door multiple times.
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She did.
The hiring manager at what was my dream corporation
Getting rejected sucks
my ex.
A specific ex-livestreamer that severely mistreated my friends and I. I’m not naming him publicly for the sake of my own safety.
My teacher told me “you can’t just coast through life doing the bare minimum” and I’ve been aggressively proving her right ever since.
Me, myself and I. I said the unsaid, and now I know that was dumb. I want to go back, it was nice before…
A guy on my paper route when I was little but didn’t realize how it hurt me until recently
My ex, but she did nothing wrong and I do t hold it against her. We were long distance and it was just too hard for her. But I was so in love with her I wanted to marry her. She stole a part of my heart and it’s still missing.
Myself mostly
this guy in the mirror
The girl in my kindergarten class that told everyone I wet myself in gym (I fucking didn’t)
Mostly, those that I have loved
My dad, being told you are nothing but what you are between your legs, and that he only wanted that and regrets not leaving you as a baby gets to you after a while.
My 4th grade “best friend”. He’s not doing okay now and it’s kinda sad
Beakman.
about 3/4 of the folks I knew between birth and 18
Former crush.
Plenty but i’m not here to point fingers and i’m probably largely responsible for most of the damage
the peak of the table is really mean
I did. Throughout all my life even when I was little I’ve always been very critical of myself. When I was younger I used to berate myself constantly for every mistake I made, though I have lightened up on that a little bit. However even little mistakes still get blown way out of proportion emotionally especially when combined with my awful social anxiety. Even though I’m trying to be less negative towards myself and don’t hate myself anymore I feel it’s going to be a long time before I actually like myself. Right now I’d say I kinda just tolerate myself I guess lol.
the most damage? myself 🙁
It’s complicated
Mostly women
Everyone. My family, the general public, the government, everyone’s fucking hurting me.
Me.
An abusive bully
My family
A man, seven years younger to me
Almost all the suffering I experience in life is traceable back to one person: me.
My Dad, my exes, society at large…. I learned to be motivated by spite. At least I’m productive.
It was you, OP
Ex husband, ex boyfriend, immediate family, extended family, former friends.
My mother when she said she was going to her parents’ graves to apologize for how shitty I turned out.
My parents. My wife. The universe. It’s everyone else’s fault but mine.
reddit did
my ex gf, most emotionally/ verbally abusive i hope i’ve ever met in my life. sometimes i wish i never met her. but i also loved the highs with her.
Why hasn’t?
My dad
Myself
Me being naive and nice, never again…but definitely my parents
At the moment? Definitely my employer. I would love to quit but too many people rely on my paycheck.
My dad, my mom, my sister, my brother, nearly every teacher in grade school, half the teachers in middle school, several bullies from grade school to high school, several guys in college, my ex-boyfriend, nearly every man I’ve dated since, my “best friend”, and many other people I thought were my friend. Oh, and myself.
Those I loved the most
Tyler, in 7th grade, you said my eyelashes looked like spider legs. And now I can’t put on mascara without thinking of that.
My narcissistic mother who cheated on my dad, lied to me about it, married her affair partner, let that affair partner abuse me in every way possible, and willfully raised me in a cult even though she claims she knew it was BS before I was born…
A girl I hooked up with the first time we hung out about two weeks ago. When I was driving her home she said she liked another guy. It hurt a lot. Still had sex though!
Myself
My dad.
Trash talking nearly every girl or woman whom I was interested in, coming up with reasons why none of them is good enough for me to date or even sleep with. Calling my car flipping business pointless and wasteful. Whipping my ass for the most trivial offenses as a kid. Accusing me of making my mom’s illness worse due to my mediocre grades, and even accusing me of “killing her” slowly because I was a crappy student.
that man in the woods
The Fed. They’re the ones making me and everyone else here poorer
Too many
My Family.
Me learning and seeing how destructive the Human Species has been and will continue to be to the only world we have.
Me realizing very early on that no one Knows what to do.
Me falling in Love and yet still not able to let go of my hate for myself and everyone, then losing that person.
Me
My dad. He didn’t mean to. He was very sick and had a breakdown.
It’s worse when you realize he couldn’t help it.
My childhood friends said I was too much of a loser to be friends with😭
I’m my own worst enemy.
And my mom. Pretty sure she has BPD and even though we no longer talk to one another, I’m still recovering from that. But that’s no excuse. I’m responsible for me and I’m doing the best I can and trying to minimize the amount of pain I cause others.
Who didn’t
Life in general
My aunt once told me to “be happy or be quiet”
I was a disappointment to my father until the day he died. And he let me know. Frequently.
tbh, he’s probably looking up at me now with disappointment.
Depression
The mods
Ex-step mom and the parent who allowed my ex step mom to continue in our family for so long.
Body shamed and berated for almost everything. Judged mercilessly for every little thing I did. Stole big $$$$$$ from our family. Lied about assaults and played the victim in insane lies. An actual sociopath and narcissist. I feel bad for her actual daughter. Good riddance.
Got a good story out of it though – when I moved away for college, she lied to my dad that I had gone to federal prison??? instead??? And that I was dating 4 other prison inmates?? I was just chilling on campus ofc. My parents were helping pay for my college expenses at the time too and had regular contact with me? So it was such a weird lie. That was the huge moment that everyone in the family was like “Ok we all know this bitch is WILD.” Wish they had realised sooner but just damn. Living with an actual insane narcissistic manipulative person for years will affect you for decades.
I’ll have to think of the other insane nonsense she did. She was super racist and bigoted against a lot of people, but would only say crazy stuff around me and her daughter so people would just think I was lying. Her act/mask around other members of the family was the spookiest thing.
Not a person. A situation: my parents’ passing really hurt me.
my dad who hurt my mom who hurt me
Mostly my mom and dad….now when they’re unavailable I just bully myself.
Her best friend of ten years said he had feelings for her, he had a terminal Illness.
It’s hard to be angry.
Definitely myself but also ignorant boys who made me feel the need to apply said hurt
My bed frame likes to annoy me pretty often.
Who hasn’t ?
Who didn’t? My dad vanished, my mom barely parented me past the age of 9, my neighbor molested me, my first boyfriend raped me, my ex-husband repeatedly coerced sex by depriving me of sleep and then yelled at me for having a depression spiral when I miscarried…
The fact that I’m alive and mostly content is down to serious hard work and therapy on my part. My current family is basically me, my husband, and every person who needs us to support them emotionally plus our kids. I make my own joy, because other people keep trying to make me sob or rage.
All Me, bro, always has been
the universe. god. reality. everything
My sister accused me of MO les tin g her when I was a 12 year old girl. Family’s been torn apart since. Her best friend of 16 years at the time was with us when she said it happened. The whole family believes me and knows she’s lying. We haven’t talked in years. I can’t comprehend how far deep in jealousy and pain you have to physically be in to accuse someone of that. She deserves prison time. I don’t know how to forgive something like that. She barely deserves the title of a human being. Had it not played out like this, I would’ve been sent to juvenile hall.
Lots of people, the pain is constant.
35-ish years ago I was goofing off at the kitchen table one night when Dad just suddenly shouted at me, “YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE A VERY LOUD VOICE!”
I compensated. A bit too much probably.
I hurt myself today. Just to see if I could feel.
My health fucked me up. I have Cushing’s from chronic stress and I gained 100 lbs in an year due to medication I require to live, basically. 🙁
I used to be 90 lb and super fit!!!
My ex wife. On so many levels.
Myself, and it’s fun, actually (not physically)
My dad. I didn’t make it through a single day without him telling me that I wasn’t wanted, I wasn’t special, I was a leech. I’m so screwed up now that I can’t make friends and have never been in a relationship. I’m wildly self sufficient now, though. So there’s that.
Violent Borderline Personality father, Codependent Pedophile Sociopath mother, honestly not even sure how I’ve made it this far
YOU
her and i dont think anyone will ever relate.
My parents.
My Ex, i‘m broken since then
My fucking mother. And sister. I swear family w f you over the hardest
Best friend who couldn’t just be honest and we could have worked things out I was disposable
You, you hurt me, with this question
28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
luke 6:28
Pretty much everyone I’ve ever known they either died and left me behind, won’t really my friends and abandon me when I needed the most, and even god there seems to never really give a f* how f*** up people treat me and just leave me alone like he doesn’t care either
Myself, my absent dad, my weirdo brother, my drunk grandmother, my crazy ex
Me, I should have known better
Give me a few minute I will post the PowerPoint.
A lot of the people I trusted the most.
Me.
Best friend was drunk one night and told me what everyone really thought about me.
I’d mistakenly thought since I liked my friends they liked me. Once I saw the truth I couldn’t unsee it.
So I tried to start over. To make new friends and connections.
Was going pretty good until I got the same feedback from them. I’m not worth having as a friend.
Once it could have been them. Twice it must be me.
My parents. One was a drug dealer turned addict, and the other had borderline personality disorder.
I was abandoned to live in poverty, violence, and squalor.
I’m a grown man now, but the years of struggle left a toll. Both physically and mentally.
I’ve never been able to fully leave that dark place.
I do try to keep it moving, though.
My best friend when he ghosted me for my bachelor party without any explanation whatsoever. He never apologized or explained his no call no show. I texted him calling him out on it and he didn’t even respond. I can’t fathom why he did it.
Recently? Fake friends talking bad about me.
The mods at rsex. Some dude put a post saying he doesn’t know how ask his gf for oral and I commented asking to “man up” got kicked out for being sexist. Asking a man to man up triggered some girl. When my point wasn’t even about gender at all
Elementary and Middle School…
My brother and my ex.
Almost every friend ive ever had.
Physically and emotionally growing up my father.
Recently though, the pain from life has been more than enough. Car was totaled back in November under no fault of my own, my new kitten that I only had for 3 months and was only 9 months old died soon after Christmas and we don’t know why, and lost my job in March and having start from square one when it comes to jobs.
I only have my wife to thank for keeping me sane. Now I just accepted a new job at a different credit union and now I am going to be in branch. Not making as much as I did before, but might be able to prove and work my way back up to where I was and maybe more
Most of the things I’ve loved. Some more than others. Then myself because I started believing somewhere along the way that I was undeserving of love. Still working on believing I am.
My family. My community.
Me. Nobody has ever done anything worse to me than I do to myself, namely, stepping on a nail, accidentally burning myself, and catching my hand in a door multiple times.
Emma. You know who you are. Emma, if you’re reading this, fuck you.