3-4 years ago I told two of my friends that Ive tried to pleasure myself w a toothbrush when I was a kid because I was exposed to porn at a young age they were surprised but didn’t really said too much about it back then and I didn’t really care either cause they were my best friends at the time they still are my friends but we cant really meet up cause of exams and etc. a year ago while three of us were gathered together one of them joked that everytime she hears the word toothbrush she remembers my story. I didn’t laugh at her joke at all nd instead confronted her saying that I didnt want jokes abt my secret and she apologized. After that incident it never came up between us again but the thought about them knowing my secret torments me so much I sometimes can’t go to sleep cause Im busy overthinking and regretting why I’ve told them that. I dont know what to do its been more than 3 years but I still get mad and anxious at the thought of it should I just tell them that I was just lying cause I thought masturbation was cool at the age? Or that I was influenced by others to tell such a lie? I cant live with the thought of them knowing about my secret everytime I remember they do know it I can’t concentrate on anything and just start overthinking what shall I do ?
Sorry for my broken english I feel really ashamed while writing this post
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Focus less on controlling what they think and more on forgiving that younger version of yourself.
Was it an electric toothbrush or just a manual one ? – Turn it into a fun thing and ask them about what they used – hair brush / cucumber etc you will find they have little secrets too
There’s not really much you can do. I think she’s being really immature about it though. I’m annoyed for you. I bet they also did the same thing even if they claim not to.
Oh it really doesn’t matter, in the grand scheme of things you’ll all be using something as you grow older and people realize it’s not taboo. I think every school has had a story of a girl using a hotdog that then broke of inside. Coz it’s stupid kids just telling stories, none of that stuff ever matter when you’re older.
Honestly forget about it, it’s absolutely nothing to be ashamed or even scared about.
Seriously? Did you ask them what they use? I used a cucumber more than once. I actually dreamed about having sex with a curling iron once. It’s not a big deal. People pleasure themselves. It’s not a moral failure.
As you get older, you’ll have so many regrets you won’t know which one to pick to worry about. It will fade in time. What we did as children was child’s play and figuring out the world. Absolutely nothing wrong with it. If the toothbrush worked, I’d still be using it proudly today as a new hack. Was it electric? 🤔✌🏽