25 f
Life…..sucks.
I’m losing my tether to the world day by day. I haven’t slept in a while. My porn addiction is back.
I was always passively suicidal but I laughed it off all the time.
Things were always bad.
Now they’re….bleak and bad and miserable.
I genuinely need help. I don’t want to look crazy more than I already do.
I also need sleep.
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Sounds like you should reach out to a professional so they can get you the kind of help you need.
I’m sorry you feel this way. I hope things get better soon
Take care of yourself. Make an appointment with your doctor, he or she may refer you to a psychiatrist. You might benefit from antidepressant medication and or psychotherapy. Definitely call the helpline if it’s urgent. I don’t know you, but I’m sure there are people who care about you and rely on you, whether you know it or not. Reach out and get help.
You won’t look crazy if you ask someone for help. People feel like this all the time. Doctors get it and can help you.
Things get better.
Please call a helpline and if that’s not what you wanna do, you can talk with me if you want.
If neither of those work, tell someone you trust, please. Just do anything but that.
I’m sorry your feeling that way, but life gets better. Everyday is a fresh start. Get some rest and see how you feel in the morning.
Admitting you need help is the first step and I’m proud of you because it’s difficult. Feel free to dm if you need to.
If it feels real and clear enough that you want to end things right now, definitely call the helpline. Better safe than sorry, and they’ll never shame you for “not being suicidal enough”. It’s clear you need help, so if you don’t feel safe or secure in your current environment, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with reaching out.
If that’s not the case, it definitely makes sense to sleep considering you haven’t slept in a while and that’s probably contributing. However, sleep isn’t the only answer. You’ll probably wake up feeling not too hot, so regardless, it’s best for you to go to a professional.
This sounds very rough for you and I’m so sorry to hear that, but hopefully the comments you’re getting on here can prove to you that so much more exists in the world that how you feel in this moment, and there are so many possibilities for you if you stick around. Please do.
Tried to message you to offer some support, but it wouldn’t let me. I really hope you get some help
Everyone’s a little busted, dude. Like, everyone. And shit sucks right now, so don’t worry about looking crazy. Tbh I think that under the extreme stress so many of us are under right now, anyone saying that feeling as shit as you describe is “crazy”… those people are just delusional.
You probably need to sleep. Don’t trust thoughts after 10 PM. That said, being ‘passively suicidal’ isn’t something you have to live with. Everyone I’ve ever spoken to who got help, especially meds, came back like “holy fuck, why was I playing on hard mode for so long?” A new life may literally be a phone call and a handful of doc visits away. It’s no different than having busted vision and getting glasses or being deaf and getting hearing aids, it’s just stigmatized.
If you feel actively suicidal, call the hotline. Or just call ‘em if you want to be heard or just less alone! They’re there to help. Then get some damn good sleep and make that call to the doc in the morning. Like I said; feeling less like shit is a call and a couple of visits away.
I’m also 25f. Im so fucking proud of you for making this post, it’s so hard to ask for help. I think you absolutely should reach out to someone especially during times when you/things in your life feel this heavy or hopeless.
I’ve been experiencing those exact thoughts for over a decade and it’s exhausting. I’m so sorry. I know it’s somewhat impossible to believe but it will get better.
I never thought I would feel better, I have been struggling since I was 13 years old and no one ever seemed to understand. I hated when people would try to tell me just do “this” or “that”. Sorry if this comes off as that at all bc fuck that!!!
You’re not crazy.
Not sleeping sucks and can make things so much harder :(( I truly believe in you and wish you the absolute best. I hope you are able to get some good sleep ASAP.
Know the feeling.
Only thing that got me out of that was first, supplementing a few vitamins and minerals that were missing (for me it was vitamin D and B12, iron, zinc) and essential amino acids (I lived off chocolate for too long) and omega 3 (anti-inflammatory and essential amino acids, and I don’t eat fish).
That made me stave enough to actually cook. Went on a whole foods diet. Quit sugar (had at least 150g of sugar a day, that’s 300g of chocolate, plus sweet spreads etc. Depression went away. Sleep is getting better. I have more energy than ever in my life. Haven’t been sick in months, before I got some cold or infection roughly twice a month.
So yeah. Highly recommend this. Get bloodwork for vitamins and minerals, and thyroid hormones. And if you are also not eating good protein, or fish, think about also taking aminos and omega 3 for a while.
Basically your cells in your body and brain can’t work properly if the are not fuelled right.
Please call someone really close to you, your loved ones. Go to the doctor immediately and explain your feelings. Please don’t take any hard steps. Take care of yourself.
Call the helpline. You know your issues, which is half the battle. Call and make an apt with a psych or go online with one right now
You can text the 988 hotline and they’ll help you in the ways they can. I urge you to look into therapy for the long term, but for now the hotline will 100% provide a nonjudgmental environment for you to speak your mind and get it all out. And they’ll help you come up with ways to cope in the future.