Shame (Catfishing) 22F 24M

It all started when I was young, I wanted to make friends so I joined a group online and I became quickly close with everyone. I shared my real identity and everything and I thought I was falling in love with one of the guys but he was lying, I was blocked and I was used and it felt awful and weird. I absolutely hated it. Years later, I found out he was a fake, how could he do this? He was doing it to other young girls too. I was so upset and angry that I wanted revenge so I came back years later and made a fake account to become close to that same friend group. I wasn’t going to continue it for long, but then I started falling for one of the guys and I kept it going. I wanted to stop, but I just really liked him and it continued on for years and I tried so many times to tell him but I got scared and cowarded out. We broke up, then he came back and he wants to try again, he tells me he loves me no matter what that he fell in love with my soul and he doesn’t care what I look like which makes me suspect that he has a feeling. I lied about name and my pictures. The only pictures that I sent that were real were nudes I did slightly edit them but no face. All my interests, everything that makes me me is real. I feel awful I feel ashamed, I want to tell him but I don’t know what to do. On top of all this, it’s long distance but it’s been 6 years. I love this man so much and I wish my heart wasn’t so broken back then and I actually used my real name and real photos. I feel like he would still like me even if I didn’t use those fake photos but I don’t know how to tell him about the deceit and lies. On top of that, my family doesn’t like him for other reasons and I ended up telling my parents what I did and what happened and they’re extremely disappointed in me. I feel so lost and disgusted. I considered extremes last night just to escape this reality. Please help me. What do I do.

TL;DR: I messed up