should i break up with him?

tl;dr

I’m 18F and my boyfriend is 17M. We’ve been together for over 8 months and are still in high school. We care a lot about our future, grades, and goals, and we even go to the same tutoring. I love him deeply. he’s done a lot for me, like thoughtful gifts and supporting me emotionally at times, but I also feel stuck.

We fight a lot, though less than before. He used to yell and act immature, and although he’s improved, his tone and negativity still hurt me. I feel like I do more in the relationship, more effort, more giving and it’s exhausting. I’ve developed a worse temper since being with him, and sometimes I feel guilty for breaking up and going back so much. He says he has disorganised attachment, and I wonder if I’ve made it worse.

When things are good, they’re amazing. He matches my energy, understands me, and we think so similarly. But when things are bad, I feel ignored, guilty, and emotionally drained. I keep wondering if I’m being too picky or if I should walk away, but I also wonder if I’ll regret leaving someone who loves me deeply and shares my vision for the future.

Right now, we haven’t spoken in two days after a small incident, and I’m questioning everything again. I don’t want any more cycles. I want to either stay or leave but I’m scared of both. I love him so much, but I don’t know what’s right anymore.

I am 18F and my boyfriend is 17M, soon to be 18. We have been dating for over 8 months now and we are still in highschool together. We don’t attend a prestigious highschool or anything, so he is one of the only people that care about me as much as my parents, want me to do as well and have the same goals. We also go to the same tutoring, and we care about our grades/uni/future a lot, so I basically cannot avoid him + everyone knows.
I have a few problems with him, but I find major red flags but I also have problems too. For one, one time I defended him for something he firmly believed in. But then, he went to our friend, my friend said I shouldn’t have done all that and he agreed. I was extremely mad because it felt like he never had my back. 2. I just feel like he does not do enough. I wrote him 100 reasons why I loved him and made so many gifts. He is muslim so I understand how he can feel restricted and not go out of his ways to do things. My temper used to be pretty good, but ever since I met him, we only fought in the beginning over everything, not that I could really remember. Even when we were friends, I would rather shut my phone off than continue arguing with him over the dumbest things. He always seemed immature. I now developed a pretty bad temper and go off at him. However, I do believe in change so much and I always forgive him. But his temper seems to not have really changed although it has improved. His tone was always terrible, yelling, and now I reflect it, I hate it. But, he definitely has improved. He seemed to not know how to be a good person or good partner or friend until I told him. I am proud of him for changing, listening and comprehending, and he has also taught me a lot of things that I needed like religion. He has taken a test to find out he has “disorganised attachment”, meaning he struggles to think he will be abandoned. I feel like it is my fault because I kept breaking up with him then going back, and so has he (but i definitely did it way more). We are both very strong together and build a good foundation for the future, and he can fully match my energy or understand my thoughts at times. When it is good, we have so much fun and happiness, and I miss him a lot. But we fight at least once every fortnight or month, which is honestly an improvement. am i too weak? he says i should not just leave so i feel bad, and the guilt traps me to stay because of what i caused. i am unsure what to do because i dont want any more cycles, i want to stay or leave and full stop. i truly do love him. Recently, we have not talked in 2 days. he said he cannot see the board behind me because my torso is taller than his, snd because he sits behind me, i talk to my friend in front a bit more. i kept checking on him, but he looked mad and wouldn’t say anything to me. then when i kept asking if he was okay, he ignored me. i tried to move his chair closer so i used my hands to pull it. but before i could, he said stop! and used his hands to wave mine away. he said something but i forgot, but i ended up secretly crying. i don’t know if it is just a bad time, and im too picky. but even when he doesnt want a lolly, i wish he would say yes so he could give it to me anyway, because i feel like i do all the things i want in a guy, well most. dont get me wrong again, he is definitely a good guy ans a good person and has done a lot for me. like what if it gets way better after marriage and we are always together. he definitely has the things i need to build my future too. he is also so negative and overly chalant, and i feel like i dont do well with someone that explosive. but he truly has done stuff like paying my friends to get me gifts because he cant go out or buying me a darry ring. he understands my sadness and loves me for who i am to the most raw version of myself, conditionallt. we still think really alike and are similar in lifestyle and everything. arghhhh im stuckkkk. do i give up or not 🙁 should i work it out? im worried i will miss opportunities and what not arghhh and i hate having to move on.