So I am actually deeply in love with my best friend. L is 20M and I am 19M. We have been friends for a long time, probably around 5 to 6 years. When we first met, I knew I had a crush on him, but I was insecure about myself and didn’t think he would ever go for me. I buried my feelings down and I tried to ignore it, however its always been in the back of my head. I know the trope of being in love with your best friend can break friend groups and stuff but I NEED him to know. Ive brough it up with our mutual friends and ive been given mixed signals so naturally I turned to reddit. I have a letter written out to give him and I almost did today but I am terrified. I dont want to ruin a good thing but I also don’t want to spend the rest of my life wondering if there was something here. I genuinley care about him and I want him in my life so much weather that be friendship or more. This is the letter I wrote for him, does it look okay? what are your thoughts?
So, there’s something I need to share with you, this isn’t something I wanted to do over a text message, and I think I might freak out if I do it in person. I’m just going to lie it all out on the table.
I think I’ve known this for a long time; from the moment I met you I’ve felt a joy that I don’t feel around anyone else. I had thought about it for such a long time but I didn’t think you would ever feel the same way. I buried my feelings deep down and tried to forget about it. Then I started dating Sam and she was jealous of our friendship. After that I finally admitted to myself that I am actually deeply in love with you, and I have been for a long time. I admire you and I think you are such a beautiful, and handsome human being. You are so creative and you feel things so deeply with every part of your heart. You are compassionate and you are quick to forgive. You are such an amazing person. I feel things about you that make my heart burn and my stomach flip. You do so many kind things for me, even just caring about what I want and how I feel.
You get under my skin like no one else and I have never felt so passionately about another person before.
I have spent such a long time thinking about the pros and cons of telling you and what would happen, and I realized this is just my perspective and I have no idea what your feelings are, and I don’t think I can go any longer without telling you. I either tell you or I spend the rest of my life wondering if something was there and I didn’t have enough courage to say something. I care about you so much that I don’t want to think about you not being in my life, and I don’t want this to ruin things. Even if you don’t feel the same way, I still want to be close to you. Because being your friend has truly made my life better.
TL;DR
In love with my best friend should I tell him? Also I have an note written to give him, does it look okay?
Comments
Is he gay?
If he is then, Yes tell him.
Only so that one of two things can happen.