For context, my friend and I have been talking about going on a girls holiday for over two years. I’ve always been serious about it; but whenever it comes to it, it just never happens.
She asked her other friends last year if they wanted to go on a girls holiday (no asking me though :/) and they said no so it didn’t happen.
Now she’s randomly got in contact and said she’s serious about us having a holiday… except she said something that implied that she’s asked a bunch of other people but they couldn’t/said no, so she’s turned to me.
I want to go on a holiday with friends — I’ve always wanted to do this and the closest I’ve got is going on a holiday with my sister.
I really want to do this but I feel a bit annoyed that I’m the last option again. My dilemma is that we get along really well when it’s just us, and if I was to speak to her in person, I’d stop caring about the implication that she asked everyone else before me.
But it’s still a bit shitty, is it not? I always try to be there for her, and she knows she’s my only friend, yet she only ever contacts me when everyone else is unavailable. In this day and age, it’s hard to make new friends, so I know I should just stop being friends with her but also I don’t want to lose my only friend.
Also, communication wise, I’ve told her how it makes me feel previously, so it’s not like I’ve not spoken to her about it either.
I do like her (as a friend + we’re both straight) and I think we’d have a fun time… it’s just that’s kind of put me off a little bit. It’s not a massive deal though tbf.