The reason im making this post is because I want to have contact with him, I have always liked him, I’ve been more in touch lately with that side of the family and I also feel guilty for holding in this “secret/thought” about him.
Basically, he was very drunk when I was 12.
He kept laughing, and I think he also kept grabbing his wife too.
Then, OK ill go straight to the point, it looked like he was masturbatng? While looking at me, his grandson who was 14 at the time told him to stop too, not sure if he was actually doing that? Maybe he just said stop because he kept laughing?
I never knew what to think of this. For years I even forgot about it.
I feel sad because I like him, and I wish this didn’t happen if it REALLY was what it LOOKED like.
Is there even any way for me to find out?… I definitely would not ask the grandson, I just wish I could know for sure.
My uncle seems to love me very much and I actually enjoy his company, I feel a lot of love, but this memory makes me feel confused because I don’t know if it was actually what it looked like!!!!
Like, what if he wasn’t actually doing that and was just moving the blanket? Idk.
When I speak to him now, I definitely wouldn’t rly think he’s the type to do such a thing. There is literally no way to eve find out if it’s what it looked like for sure….!
Or is there?
And it bothers me. :/
And I feel guilty.
I also feel a bit awkward sometimes talking to him when there is a possibility that he WAS touching himself to me. Ugh.
I’m also close with his daughters and wife, I feel guilty possibly thinking something that may not be true and I also feel a bit fake to act like everything is ok when I remember this and it’s a total mind puzzle because I can’t be sure if it’s what it looked like?!!
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When someone is drunk and inhibitions are down they often show you sides of themselves they normally wouldn’t. There’s obviously no way for you to know if this is true or not, you can only go off of a very old memory. The only advice is can really give is, your uncle is one person in a world of a billions of people. You don’t sound like you absolutely have to be around him. I don’t see any reason why you’d want to pursue a closer relationship with him when you don’t have to.
If you DO stick around, I’d be very vigilant of how he is around the children in his life and be absolutely fucking sure that I don’t become a silent bystander while he does to other kids what he may have done to you. He didn’t choose you because you’re you, he chose you because you were a child. He will be a repeat offender if indeed this is true.
Trust your gut.