Sometimes I hate being a woman. Not only did I suffer through IVF and an ectopic pregnancy, I had pregnancy and a c-section destroy my core. Plus breastfeeding really does a number on your boobs. I then hit the menopause early in my late 30s – that was fun.
I have been on HRT for 6 years, and in the last two months had some mid-cycle bleeding. So today I had the joy of a trans-vaginal ultrasound. It’s always alarming when the NHS gets you seen super quickly.
I can’t wait to see what my body throws at me now. Is it reacting to the HRT in a new and excitingly bad way? Has my womb decided to grow a few polyps? Or do I have signs of something worse?
I am aware it’s probably nothing, byt would appreciate anyone who has been through the same or similar to emphasise with me.
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I haven’t been through that but I’ll say that the menstrual cycle is proof there is no god.
I hear you OP. Not exactly the same situation but dealing with issues and a scare of something unknown myself. I’ve had endo and adenomyosis since my periods started. After six laps and a caesarean, premature ovarian insufficiency from my mid 20s which took 15 years to diagnose, then I had a hysterectomy. Then found out I had a prolapse. Then after I woke up in horrific pain last week I went to the doctor who sent me to the hospital and they discovered it’s not a prolapse but they don’t know what the fuck it is and I now have an urgent MRI in a few days.
I am definitely coming back as a man in my next life, I am so fucking over this shit.
Sending massive hugs to you. This stuff is awful and the waiting is the worst.
I also hate being female. I hope in my next life I’m born male cuz fuck this.
Yeah hitting early perimenopause you get extremely jealous of men. They never have to go through this shit
Sounds like you’ve had a really rough go of it, I’m sorry.
I’d like to recommend a book you might enjoy during your various recoveries: Vagina Obscura by Rachel E. Gross is a really fascinating ride through female physiology and all the wild and varied processes that go into our reproductive biology.
I don’t have kids, I also blissfully don’t have a lot of period pain. So this is more abstract to me than to you. But I still found it incredibly cool and somewhat… bolstering? To read about the evolutionary reasons behind our periods and how unique the uterine tissue is, for example.
There are definitely infuriating pasages in the book, like anything about women’s health. But there is also a true appreciation for the wild complexity of female bodies, human and otherwise
I’m not having kids, so hopefully that will help a little