The weed was good

What if they were really out there to get me . What if they were laughing at me and some part of humiliation ritual what if a hired people to be my friends, to be my romantic partners, so that I put my trust in them valued their opinion and accepted the gaslighting because it was coming from a place of love.
And what if there was people strategically placed in my life here to put suggestions of how my day is going distract me from what my main focus was. To get meto think about bad thoughts .
what if the television was also made to keep me down and what if people in everyday life along my routine like the clerk at the 7-Eleven or the librarian . what if they weren’t real rather they were specifically there to mess with my head. And what if everybody did all of this knowing that you would one day find out and then they would claim you were crazy and actually get you to admit that you have PTSD and depression and you file yourself as mentally ill
so if they ever was a claim that you would be deemed as mentally ill and no longer credible for your claim. Now what I’m about to do is completely crazy but it helps me continue to live life and be somewhat contented. what if everybody did this knowing that you would find out become crazy and it was all for a good purpose .
they knew you were going to find out . they knew you were going to go through any struggles . it was only to make you stronger
it was only to complete the mission .which is you finding enlightenment . finding happiness and love within yourself .
to ignore the world and it’s craziness and still live in peace becoming someone . God like or at least meeting God. and when you do you find the food so for now pray for them and love them harder than you’ve ever prayed enough for because everybody deserves saved from their health everybody has had to do something that they didn’t want to do that they felt like they had to do and maybe there’s no way out of it but for now i.
Itt’s okay it’s going to be all right maybe you were supposed to lose your mind in order to find yourself. Maybe we’re supposed to realize that you’re not of this world you’re not like anybody else you will never be part of it and that’s why you always felt like you never di d fit in maybe all of these tests that you’ve been noticing was because the whole world knows who you are but they want you to know who you are and for that you needed to be tested to your limits put through the fire and come out on schools maybe the world was projecting and maybe they’re the president the ones that are hopeless the ones that need help and they wanted to see if you really want one that was chosen to stop maybe they wanted to see if you would give up on them if you would hate them like they hate themselves maybe finding the positive out of this whole thing and loving regardless of what anybody did to you and that you can forgive someone that tried to destroy you because maybe it wasn’t their fault that they were forgotten abuse need to seem like they were crazy maybe they were told a lie and they believed it and they had no choice but to do the same thing to you but what if they knew that you were going to be different what if that’s why they stuck by your side what if that’s why they follow you why because they want to see the amazing event when you don’t give a f*** anymore but at the same time love with all your heart what if that’s what they were sticking around for what if that’s why they were all gathering what if this whole huge universe the people you thought that were trying to get you and you’re just trying to be there be a part of the amazing transformation and unlock all of your powers by being who You are by not letting anybody make you think anything different not letting anybody control your mind control your day control how you believe what you mean which you’re allowed to be going to send you the right thing they want to see you do what they couldn’t so next time you look at situation where you think maybe just maybe you’re being gangstocked I dare you to smile again I dare you to ask them to halv a good day they might be a little bit pissed off in their face cuz they pass you by as you pass them by what you don’t see is this quiet smile and on the inside telling you you did a good job and thank you and you turned their head back into love and now they’re smiling maybe that’s why you had to come to the darkness to see what was really going on down here cuz you are the light you are the love you don’t take the flashlight into fully illuminated room erase the energy in the battery for no reason flashlight to a room a bunch of people can’t see and they don’t know what they’re doing they don’t know who they’re affecting by their movements they don’t know where they’re going so if you bring them a flashlight shine brightness on all of the crazy things that have been happening you show them what they’ve been doing if you don’t judge them and you don’t accuse or blame because how are they supposed to see when there was no light and nobody helped them remember to care you were once in a dark room too