Thinking about coming back?

Hello all, (this is a lot so bare with me)

I was in LE for about 10 years (started in corrections at a Sheriff’s Office, went to a PD and was on patrol and ended up in CID) and left because of severe burnout about 6 months ago to do something completely different. I had a rough last year in LE, largely due to the cases I was working. I was in major crimes and assigned to ICAC Task Force as well. Between the cases, some really tragic scenes back to back to back (diagnosed PTSD, went to therapy and am doing a lot better), lack of leadership, being on call constantly (and seemingly getting called out all the time), along with my first kid on the way, I wanted out and I dreaded going to work. Even the thought of transferring back to patrol seemed very daunting to me, having to handle civil complaints, collisions, and non-police related calls….and I wanted no part of it. (Not throwing a pity party, I know you all have seen a lot too. Just sharing for some context of why I left.)

In my current role I work a hybrid schedule with some days in office and some days at home. When the clock hits 4pm I turn my computer off and do not have to worry about anyone calling me out in the middle of the night. They have a good 401k and insurance coverage, but I struggle when my supervisor gets worked up over certain language being used in the documents and think to myself “seriously is it that big of a deal? At least no one is dead.” (I have a former nurse on my team and her saying is “we are saving PDF’s, not lives, it’s not that big of a deal”). I know it’s the wrong mindset to have, but I struggle with keeping those thoughts at bay. I find myself, when talking with others about jobs, I will tell them my current role then hurry up and say “but I use to be a detective.” The latter gets a lot more attention and questions followed with “why did you leave?” Per my wife, I am much more enjoyable to be around and a lot less stressed in my current role. I cannot see myself sitting behind a computer doing excel spreadsheets the rest of my life. I also do not want to work until I’m 59.5 or longer.

I have about 6 more months until I would have to make a decision to return to LE in order to keep working and collect my pension at the age of 50, otherwise I lose the pension although I could transfer the funds into my Roth.

My state has 1 pension plan and there’s several different roles that qualify under the same pension system. I recently got my bachelors degree and am now “qualified” for a lot more jobs, most being at the state level or supervisor level. A few roles that have peaked my interest are administrative supervisor roles with my states DOC, as well as OIG investigator roles for a few different state agencies. All are mon-fri and the roles that do require on call, you’re only on call once every 2 months. From my understanding after talking with some of them, they hardly ever get called out. The jobs I am eyeing also pay about $20k more than I’m currently making.

I know I know, never listen to advice from strangers on the internet. But, do you guys think I should stick out my current role with the cushy schedule and low stress and forget about returning? For those that have left the profession, does this feeling of being a cop is part of my identity subside with time? Is it crazy to return to a profession that burnt me out severely a few months ago? I do feel the roles I’m looking at do not have the factors that burnt me out and can recognize I’m not ready to return to being a street cop or a detective at the PD again. Just looking for some advice from those that may have been in similar situations.

Thank you all for your time.