I (18F) just got out of a long term committed relationship of two years which I broke off after my friends pushed me to realise my worth. I went to a birthday party the other night with this friend group, being the first time I’d seen most of them since the breakup a few weeks earlier. I was still really upset about it and let’s just say I wasn’t healing in the best way – I felt the only way to gain any confidence was to bounce from person to person to get a quick hit of feeling like I was worth something. So at this party I was, along with everyone else, drinking a LOT, I’m talking maybe 8 drinks (I’m a light weight). This girl who my friend has been dating for a couple months has always shown interest in me even while I was dating my boyfriend, and has previously at a different party tried to make out with me and even asked her boyfriend which he said no but she pursued it anyway. I did not want to engage in that in the first party as I was taken and also just not interested. However at this party she kept talking about how her boyfriend was using her and that things weren’t looking good. She took all the girls at the party aside and said if they ever broke up we should all stay friends which in hindsight is a red flag. She became really touchy with me halfway through the night, dragging me away from the group, wrapping her arms around me and shoving my face into her boobs. I guess in a weird way I was into it but I just didn’t want it to happen like that and especially not with her, my friends GIRLFRIEND. That didn’t stop her though. She eventually dragged me to a bathroom and made out with me. I was so drunk I just went along with it and even though I tried to push her away I didn’t say no and I think that’s where I’m mostly to blame. I only really came to and realised what was happening when she knocked her face into me really hard and bit my lip/hurt my teeth, and around the same time our other friend walked in and saw us. I don’t remember a lot of the night, just that everyone was upset with me over it. The next few days after were awful, apparently she told everyone that I convinced her to and other friends made us do it, which from what I do remember wasn’t the case. This was pretty much my only friend group and I totally blew it by being a drunk single idiot. I kissed multiple girls that night because I’m just overly affectionate but things definitely went too far in this case. I really don’t know what to do or how, if even possible, I could make amends. I feel violated and misunderstood but I feel I can’t actively bring that up without making it seem like I’m a victim and downplaying the boyfriend’s feelings.
TL;DR; my friends gf has been flirting with me a lot which up until the other night I was not interested in however I got super drunk and we ended up making out after she pushed me to do so the entire night and now my entire friendgroup is split and blaming me.
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If this happened as described, you were sexually assaulted by this girl.