I always struggled with mental health as a kid, social anxiety, diagnosed OCD, gained a lot of weight. Just had severe carpal tunnel surgery on one hand, waiting for the other. Decided to take action of my life this year and really turn my life around.
I’m 27, almost 28 in a month. I know the reason why I wanna post this is because I’m too scared in my thoughts, my fear is amplified. I was just diagnosed with prediabetes which already scared me. Food was my coping mechanism so it felt a friend was taken away from me. I’ve already lost 40 pounds so far. Anyways, I just wanted to give context before i say about never cleaning my penis. I was also isolated as a kid growing up and never talked and had bad social anxiety but I found my self worth this year
At 23, I decided to clean down there. Initially I knew at age 18, I’m supposed to wash, but I didn’t and tbh idk why, I just didn’t care I guess, I didn’t have any relationships or friends to talk to so I guess I got too comfortable. On top of that I had severe ocd during that time so it was hard to just even clean down there.
Eventually I did, cleaned the smegma off, clean everyday. But the thing is from 23-27, I still get bad odor down there because urine gets trapped down there everytime I retract, and even if I use toilet paper, it leaves that nasty urine odor behind and most likely I’ve been having ongoing chronic inflammation. I’m not sure why I’m posting this, I just wanted to feel less alone, I’m too in over my head, afraid I’m going to get penile cancer at this point. I’m already taking action on everything but I feel like it’s too late and I’ll get cancer because of the ongoing inflammation since whenever I guess my mom cleaned me down there when I was a kid or my parents I mean. Just waiting on a urologist referral to be approved. I just hope I don’t get penile cancer because of my fault. I’m sorry if this is disgusting, I’m just too over in my head and so full of head because of ocd is amplifying everything.
TLDR; didn’t wash , penile cancer risk
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God. What a terrible day to know english
So, you never masturbated? You would have had to clean the damn thing. Start masturbating, you’ll keep clean and I’m sure everything will be fine.
Relax and take the news as it comes. You’re already making steps in the right direction and that’s commendable. Continue to do so. Not for others but yourself. These things alone won’t resolve your other issues but they won’t exacerbate them anymore either. For what it’s worth, I’m proud of ya.
Go the doctor ffs
I’m not sure why you think you’re going to get cancer from this.
You probably have a skin infection. Go get checked out at your doctor.
Lmao
As others have said, this sort of thing wouldn’t cause cancer. There could definitely be other health problems from it, but you’re already doing all the correct things for it. You’re working on cleaning it to the best of your ability now, you’re seeking out help from a doctor. For now, just keep cleaning it daily. Once you’re able to see a urologist, they can determine if there’s anything wrong, and can tell you what to do about it if there is. Just make sure you bring up all of your concerns with the urologist.
Everything is going to be fine.
Edit: It also just occurred to me, are you drinking enough water? You mentioned having a strong urine odor remaining even after wiping, and if you’re dehydrated that could just be from your urine being too concentrated. If you’re drinking plenty of water and still have a strong odor there then that could be a sign of an infection or something else though.
Good luck and f@@k the haters !